Serious I think I'm evil.

Ah... I feel like shit. One moment I'm evil, the next I'm laughing, the next I'm regretting, and the next I feel wrist-slittingly depressed. There's my life in a nutshell.
 
FreakshowGamer said:
Ah... I feel like shit. One moment I'm evil, the next I'm laughing, the next I'm regretting, and the next I feel wrist-slittingly depressed. There's my life in a nutshell.
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....and this right here is the comment that makes me think you really need to get help and you need to go get it NOW. You've got some mental problems, kiddo. Go get them taken care of before they really fucking ruin you, and believe me, they will.
 
To be honest, I dont know weather this whole post is a wind up or serious, afterall its in the spam collesium and not the sleeping forest.

If it is serious I think you have to take a big step back, look at yourself in the mirror and sort yourself out, appologise to your friend and seek help because if its true your one breakdown short of Serial Killer from the sounds of that supposed text.
 
If you were to go to get help, get it soon. Actually, get it now while you're young. Don't wait at all.

Your mental health comes first, above all things.
 
Oh... I could have put this somewhere other than the Spam Coliseum?... Sorry there's just so many other forums here I just went to the first one that sounded somewhat fitting... Ok, quick question, what do you guys do to make yourselves happy when you have a sad thought stuck in your mind? I kind of need an answer...
 
I do agree with the people that have said you should see someone, and definitely I don't mean it in offensive ways.
Of course if your friends know about you and your emotions then you can talk to them or find some other outlet, be it creative or whatever, to express yourself and maybe these kind of feelings can stay away for a while.
Obviously, I think most people feel horrific at times in their life where they feel they'll be alone or they think their ugly but they learn to deal with it and get over it because honestly, it's nothing more than just thinking pessimistically.
I think you should try to think positively, try talking to friends and family about yourself and you have no idea how many people may actually want to help you through tough times if you're willing to talk about it.
 
In this case, you need help. You're exhibiting high signs of progressive euphoric and manic depression. If what you say is true, it will only become worse. Get help. It's for the best.
 
I listen to music, but if you're not into music it won't do the same thing for you.

Basically, do whatever you do to normally unwind, as long as it doesn't involve anything illegal or stupid.
 
FreakshowGamer said:
Ok, quick question, what do you guys do to make yourselves happy when you have a sad thought stuck in your mind? I kind of need an answer...
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I tend to do other things to push any sad thoughts to the very back of my mind - listen to music, play something, have fun etc. I never really let sad thoughts grind me to a halt and keep me in depression all the time. I just move on.
 
Ha, Illegal or stupid ;3 Nah... I'm not a stupid person like that >.> I feel like talking aloud... But no one's around :S I could always go somewhere private and sing Taylor Swift music as loud as possible, since that's what I feel like doing... Ok... Now I'm disturbing myself. I think a good idea would be to play some violent videogames on EASY difficulty so I can feel satisfied... and not get frustrated from dying... Would violent videogames have something to do with it? Hmm... I'm not sure, it doesn't seem to be impacting me in any way... I enjoy playing videogames very much but what it seems to make me gain maturity sometimes :\ Final Fantasy made me gain more self awareness of my actions... Due to the characters in the games changing my life. It was that much of an impact, damn... Hmmmm... Loneliness... I really really really want to give someone a hug. There's just no one to hug... Except for my mom... but... we're not like that >.> I'm more of a 'hug your friends' type of person. UGH Now I really want a hug! Shiiiiit. You know what's funny? The friend I sent those messages to always gave me a hug when I was sad, but I started getting sad and wanting a hug so much, that he banned me from getting hugs until extremely appropriate situations... I think I have a hugging addiction. Although it does help me when I'm depressed... UGH I'll just go hug my PS3 since I love it so much!

What I just typed... was a waste of time, and that's what has been going through my head in the past 10 minutes. :S I need to calm down.
 
Right, I'm going to move this to "Temple of the Ancients" since this is more serious discussion. I'll leave a day long redirect so you know where to find it.
 
Ok, thanks! I'm almost done with this discussion anyway, but if anyone has anything to add, please go ahead! I need help *~*
 
Yes, I think you do too and with a topic like this being in the spam section, it will easily and very quickly get derailed. I'd rather not see that happen. Anyway, please folks. This is now in the post count section, so no spam. Thank you.
 
Kyelinn, You may be emphasizing my need for help a little much... I'm not the craziest person in the world you know >.>
 
Crazy people don't think they're crazy and sane people think they're going crazy. Funny how that works out... (Seriously, what kind of mind frak is that? Although, it's actually true, it's still a mind frak.)

When you get jealous to the point where you send you best friend a long email about him being raped to death by a pedo whilst you watch and laugh at his girlfriend while things are over... Yeah, that constitutes people thinking that you have problems.

Personally, I think you're bi-polar. I've known plenty of bi-polar people in my time. A lot of which have done things quite similar to the things you've done.
 
FreakshowGamer said:
Kyelinn, You may be emphasizing my need for help a little much... I'm not the craziest person in the world you know >.>
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I don't think I'm emphasizing it at all. I'm not saying you're crazy. I'm saying you have a mental problem and you need help. That doesn't automatically mean you're crazy. It means you probably have some sort of chemical imbalance going on in your head that's triggering these outbursts and mood fluctuations, and you need to get help for it. No matter how much people hate or get angry, they never just randomly burst out and wish death or rape on a person, ESPECIALLY their best friend.
 
This has something to do with an internal issue with my brain? Chemical imbalance? Hmm... Well I wasn't always like this :\ I'm probably more bi-polar than I am chemically imbalanced in my brain o.0 When I'm not depressed and doing ok, I'm just fine... Well I do go a bit hyper sometimes >.> I... don't know.
 
...a chemical imbalance is what causes one to become depressed, bipolar, etc just so you know. Most likely that's what it is. I agree with Tsuki when he says it sounds as if you're bipolar, but we're no doctors here so we can't diagnose you. I do implore you to go to the doctor and get checked out before it gets worse.
 
Oh... Sorry I'm not a smart person >.> I didn't know that... I feel happy now... My current mental state is anxious waiting for my friend to log in to MSN >.>
 
- Moved to Spam -

This has been moved due the lack of content and since this is not a life problem in general. Also the amount of double posting in one liners made this enter the crap shoot. Keep posting, but post count disabled.

- Moved back to Temple of Ancients -

Didn't see mandi's post =P - sorry about that, I guess this is for real. I read through it going.. /ffs so.. keep going.. just please be sure to add details etc and don't derail it.
 
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