Serious What's wrong with me ?

[Starships]

I feel like there is something terribly wrong with me. But it's not a mental illness so I can't really say " I can just take some medication for that and some rest, and see a doctor ". I feel like there is two of me. One side of me is lazy, carefree, social, silly, and doesn't really care about mess. The other me is anti-social, depressed, prefers to be left alone, and is a downright perfectionist.

One time I burst into tears because I wore a top one day that was reused from yesterday and it had a slight Pasta mark on it from Dinner. The 1st me really didn't give a toss and just wore it and just had " I'll wash it later " attutide and then all of a sudden without warning, the 2nd me kicked in and thought how disgusting it was to wear a top that should of be cleaned and washed this morning. I was crying because I felt so messed up and confused. I feel like I don't have a split personality, but there actually is two different "Me's " It's downright confusing and if the other Me kicks in, I can look like a total crazy person in front of everybody. It's not Bi- Polar because when you're down, you're really down and I don't get really down or upset just turn into a neat perfectionist...and it's not Schizophrenia... at least I don't so; so what the hell is wrong with me ? This is not normal.

I feel like I've been like this since I was little, even a baby though it's just gotten worse or more noticeable.

 

[Valkyrur]

This is interesting, largely because I'm recently learning about these phenomena in people. However, to be honest, I really think you ought not seek help here. Professional or not, there's no way to confirm that and it wouldn't be good if a professional-sounding response turns out to be the worst thing you can do. Furthermore, I would think that these information that you have so far is insufficient, and I am inclined to believe that more probing questions would be involved in finding out more. These questions may be uncomfortable and may be more so online here, where everyone can see and no confidentiality is assured. So it's not the most helpful, but yes, I would really advise you to seek professional help in reality if you really do feel that something needs to be done.

 

[Sepalcure]

To be perfectly honest with you, Valentines, I would seek out a medical professional for a diagnosis. I'm not going to question you on anything further and I'm going to withhold labeling you with a diagnosis. I personally feel that you should visit a trained medical professional for a proper and more thorough diagnosis. They will be able to sit you down and talk you through the process and they'll (to my knowledge, anyhow) be able to analyze you and perform tests on you. They might ask you questions and such, I'm not entirely sure how the diagnosis process for bi-polar disorder or any other other schizophrenia disorders really goes. The diagnosis process for neurological/personality disorders are constantly changing but from what I recall, they'll definitely ask you questions and psychoanalyze you. You're not going to get your answer here and I think members can easily speculate that it "sounds like this" and it "sounds like that" but that answer isn't concrete and they're not from an evaluative perspective. You need a medically and scientifically factual and unbiased opinion. So I would implore you to seek professional medical help, go with your folks, it will be confidential, and have them test you -- don't hesitate, especially if you feel that you have a problem. Our bodies and our minds have a way of urging us that there is something wrong, but I don't think, like I said before, that you'll find your answer on a gaming forum. No, not at all. Take it from me, go for help and please talk to your parents about this.

 

[Kei]

I advise you to go seek a professional medical help, you're not right to exclude Bi-polar, as it's not bipolar "disorder", they are "disorders". You don't have to be "really" depressed to have a bipolar and if you burst into tears over a trivial thing you're experiencing depression there, honestly, you could have any mood disorder. So, the only advice that can be given is that you go seek medical help.

 

[seddy-0]

i am no doctor, but i have had friends like that and what it is.. is a form of depression. best consult a doctor who will then either prescribe you meds or he or she may refer you to a counselor or therapist to speak with. whats going on is in your head there is a battle going on for control and one side goes "screw it" while the others side is going "what do you think you are doing" you are getting pulled in a tug of war internally emotionally. something in your life has triggered this in you and you need to find out what casued it and take it from there. that's just my take though.

 

[Starships]

Well I followed everybody's advice and I went to the doctors and I got diagnosed with Bipolar disorder. Everything is okay. I have friends and family that are helping me out and everything and plenty of support from them.

I also went to my boss today and he gave me some time off work to relax and get used to everything. Thankyou for this help, otherwise I might of been lost and confused and things could of gotten much worse.

<3

 

[Nocturne]

Glad to see you went and got help. Definitely nothing to be ashamed of. No one should ever be ashamed of any problems they have physically or mentally. You come to find out so many people have problems, they just may not talk about them. Pretty much you can pick anyone out of a crown and they most likely have some type or problem/disease/ailment.

So good luck with the treatment and it's good you have alot of help