[V5] What's Your Mood?

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Mood: Nostalgic and, to be creative
It's has been a long time since International Labour Day last year and I have a habit of refreshing my memory on this day. I will try to summarise one of my memories briefly, hope so.
I used to be a staff in a small cinematic group. After Covid came and destroyed the team, I've had to work in a different job to not be unemployed, even the salary isn't as good as before. I don't need to be very creative to do this new job but honestly, I'm not used to it yet. Two days ago, my wife was just approached by a man returning from the virus hotspot, but thank God she told me that man now has a negative result. If not, I will choose the sad mood here. I feel everything seems ok so that having free time (not much) to think about what I've done in my life. Honestly, I often create ideas for the team from my memories in real lìe, and creativeness is my interest in the work.

Back when I was a child, my mother, until now, really doesn't like me to play any video games. I tried to convince her that most of my stories written in class are based on those games but impossible. Then, she read one story and allowed me to play some games, but in case of sitting behind me. Day to day, I showed her the Sims then Commandos, Age of Empires which my father gave me as gifts, and Final Fantasy. Everything was fine until FF. Aerith was stabbed by Sephiroth and my mother just screamed out. Since then, I've attempted to play video games in secret. If my mom discovers, my sleep at night will be gone due to her angriness.
Now I feel that terrifying moment is quite fun. My mom likes to watch action movies with me so I have a responsibility to find out some good things for her. Most of them are rather brutal but definitely more than that FF7 scene. One day I chose the John Wick franchise to watch due to its good reviews, I saw John had a very normal life without any desire, but he turned out to be a veteran soldier who has been retired and then got caught up in an assassin's war because of his dogs. The whole 3 movies, for me, are frightfully violent when the characters are stabbed by many katanas and be shot many time. Luckily, my mom still enjoyed all parts of the film. She explained to me the problem in a movie or a game is not how they look violent in some scenes, but how a character avoids death and overcomes the situation to protect for self, people or something he or she loves, instead of choosing death as a way of resolving and then finally makes someone suffer for the rest of life. I suspected she was referring to the scene of Aerith and understood the reason why she has tried to stop me from playing games since then.

At the moment I just lay down on the bed and think of if one day FF game can show up a character like John Wick (certainly not like exactly in the movie but his life). As a hobby, I imagine that guy has a beautiful wife and a smart kid but under a very crazy timeline, where a conflict between magic side and the hi-tech is in progress. Although this guy is very talented in many aspects such as singing, cooking, sometime doing poem etc, but the war with disease and pandemic makes any workers, even him, be completely unemployed. Every mornings some guys go to his house to encourage him of joining the army but he refuses. Every mornings he runs on the beach because this place is the only one he can feel safe and not be disturbed by those guys, while the wife is preparing the breakfast and cleaning the house before going to work. He hasta go back quickly to empty out the rubbish and spends the day taking care of the kid. One morning, he comes back home and sees his wife looking at his diary, which describes the enemy and how to take them down by assassinating, capturing and torturing. Of course she feels shock when discovering her husband turns out to be an secret agent before, not a normal worker in a factory. She even tells him magic side is mysterious, dangerous but at least they are human, not like those Androids and machines in the other side. He tries to convince her of thinking about their kid's life and promises that he'll find out a decent job soon. Because of their kid, she temporarily trusts him. One day, an old friend of him drops in at their house. When the wife return to the kid's room, this man shows a contract , askes the husband if he want to get back the job, but as a security guard for a machine in space. He doesn't take this contract due to the "top secret" on it, so he sends off his old friend. Before leaving the old man tells him he'll soon regret. The next day his family is attacked by a mysterious group who use magic. They tell him will not stop until they have killed him and all of his friends in this timeline. He succeeds in defeating them to protect the family, but their house is completely destroyed. The Android has been unusual to not interfere on time so he is very angry. After sending the family a safe place, he comes to meet his old friend. While listening the old man explain how the machine is important to defeat the magic side and save the timeline from the doom, he agrees to the contract putting on the table but with only one condition: let him assemble his colleagues and office workers, also friends, who are working in factories and companies, to his team again and work in space together.
Well my word is quite long now and it's certainly too much for a mood. So hope that you guys finally have a good time no matter how you feel good or bad today.
 

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Mood: Drained

I think the past couple of months have been... something else. I keep thinking "Why are you so easily annoyed?" Or "Dang, that reaction was quite unnecessary, wasn't it, Kira?" but just taking the time to look back on it, even a little bit, makes me realise, that no, it actually makes sense.

It's been go, go, go for quite some time now and I've not taken the proper time to sit down and do things I enjoy to unwind. It's one thing after another constantly, which prevents you from doing things you enjoy, because, well, you don't enjoy anything because of stress. Duh.

So here I was hammering away, forcing myself to do things I "enjoy" without actually mentally taking the time for it.

Genuinely, it's so important to tune in with your mental state.

First step taken by unloading some responsibility where possible. Good job me.

*checks off task on to do list*
 

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Mood: Pretty good actually!

Reason: With it being a bank holiday over here in the UK, it meant an easy day at work and an early finish! Woop! Also, one of my bosses are off this week so things are a bit more lax. I think like Kira above, I haven't given myself time to myself without feeling guilty so I've been playing tonnes of Bravely Default 2 and watching a load of Sword Art Online/Superstore :ryan:.
 
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Mood: Alright

Feeling a little better than I have the past few weeks. Properly picked up my planner finished the May setup, which definitely gave some peace of mind with all that's going on and needs taking care of. Also ordered my new one for July. Since these notebooks are flying off the shelves these days. The stress of them being out is gone too. As much as I enjoy the creative aspect of these notebooks, it's definitely a productivity tool first and foremost for me.

Aside from that just trying to unwind with everything going on.

I will say I'm sick of people being shitty people, though. Haven't sorted a cure for that yet.
 
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