Reminiscences...

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When you think about the past, do you hate yoursrelf or anything about you that you've done in the past?

I know I do. Often. I do it almost everyday.

I really hate how I become interested in young immature girls who aren't mature enough to return strong feelings that have been expressed for them with nothing. I think about it everyday of my life since I spilled my guts to her... She's always talking about wanting to kiss some guy. So I just start thinking... "Where the hell am I? What about me? Am I even on the damned radar? What about those secret feelings that I leaked to you? Do they even matter to you? I've done such a foolish thing, haven't I? Maybe it was all a mistake... Me? A life? Hopes? Dreams? Something to look forward to? Somewhere where I could be accepted for who I am instead of what I am? What the hell have I been smoking?"

These thoughts all return to me everyday. But for some reason, I always keep trying my damnedest to be so good to her and keep trying to hang out with her even though I don't even think she's interested.

 

[Clyde]

dont worry about it man, you're still young... when you get to the later ages, you'll look back and say "Kids...." everyone has done something they cringe about whenever its thought about... I know I have...

 

[Big Boss]

Just stay friends with her until she realizes you have feelings for her. Then she will look back, and go, "Oh wow.. He was there all the time for me." and then she'd be all over you. Well, I don't know about that, because everyones different.

As for thinking about the past? Nope. The only time I thinking back on it, is when I'm retelling a funny story to my friends. Or explaining a story to the newer friends. Like when I dropped my pants because the teacher wouldn't let me go to the washroom. That was a funny day.

 

[OmniscientOnus]

I know how you feel Squizzgar. I feel like that everyday. The worst part is, I leaked how I felt to someone I believed to be "that special someone", and now, five years later, I'm still kind of wondering if she'll return them properly. I mean, we've been dating these past five years, but I'm still waiting to hear "I love you" with the sincerity behind it that really makes you believe it's true.

Don't put all your eggs in one basket, so to speak. If she never returns those feelings, you may one day be stuck with her... if she ever decides to come around that is.

 

[L]

Okay, this isn't the "help Squizzgar feel better thread", not that I resent your comments. I'm asking if anyone feels like shit when they think about the past. So let's get this thread on topic, shall we?

 

[OmniscientOnus]

I was just saying that I feel like shit too, for basically the same reason. I didn't mean to come off as trying to make you feel better. Sorry.

 

[Lunatic Higher]

I tend to think about the past a lot, and I have hated myself for the things I've done. Though, I've found that it's a lot more useful to think about more productive things and put my energy and time into more productive things. All I can really do is learn from the past and use it toward the future, since it's unable to be changed. There are a lot of things that I'd like to take back or alter, but unfortunately it's not going to happen, so I might as well not waste any more of my time than I did with those particular things. =] That's my theory, anyway.

 

[Holic]

I was just saying that I feel like shit too, for basically the same reason. I didn't mean to come off as trying to make you feel better. Sorry.

Hahahaha.
Do you see how ridiculous and preposterous that sounds?
I see no need for you to apologize at all Omni. If he doesnt want your advice, whatever. You shouldn't be apologizing though.

Anyways, everyone is a little depressed. I dont know a single incredibly happy person. They may be perky and cheery, but it doesnt mean there isnt something lurking in their mind. Then again, it doesn't mean that we all need to complain and mope and be emo and angsty all the time.

Yea, every year seems to be getting worse as I grow older. But hey, you deal with it and look back at the good and poor choices you have made and reflect a bit. But don't live in the what if. Just....damn, this is going to sound corny...live and have fun.

 

[Mitsuki]

Hahahaha.
Do you see how ridiculous and preposterous that sounds?
I see no need for you to apologize at all Omni. If he doesnt want your advice, whatever. You shouldn't be apologizing though.

Anyways, everyone is a little depressed. I dont know a single incredibly happy person. They may be perky and cheery, but it doesnt mean there isnt something lurking in their mind. Then again, it doesn't mean that we all need to complain and mope and be emo and angsty all the time.

Yea, every year seems to be getting worse as I grow older. But hey, you deal with it and look back at the good and poor choices you have made and reflect a bit. But don't live in the what if. Just....damn, this is going to sound corny...live and have fun.

Very nice, my friend. I agree with you on this. Never live on the "What if" I mean, it sure is nice to think about it sometimes, but we shouldn't dwell on that and let our lives be based on that single factor alone.

As for me, yes of course I've looked back and hated myself for doing the things I did. I'm sure everyone has. It's all part of living. And what's worse...is looking back, reflecting on our mistakes, trying to better our lives...and yet we make the same mistakes all over again in the end anyway. And knowing that it's our choices, is what makes it triple worse.

But, that's life, right? Nothing you can really do about...although it sure is tempting to try.

 

[John Marston]

I regret alot, meeting certain people, caring whether or not we would get along...There's a lot of things to list, i'm pretty sure if i were to type it all out there wouldn't be enough room for it all in one post.

There is one thing i will always regret for the rest of my life and its this, the fact that i did not ask this girl for her number. I always wondered what would everything be like now had i did, it still tears me up inside. I can't help but to think things would be better for me had i asked...things would be different now.

 

[Kandy-Sugar]

I can most definitely say that I regret a lot of things I've done in the past.

I often think back to my teenage years when I did a lot of silly things that got me in a lot of serious trouble.

It's true that if I hadn't of done some of those things that I wouldn't have learnt my lessons well and good, but at the same time I really wish I could change it all. =/

The main thing I regret is dating a guy just for the sake of it (I was on the rebound) only to have him hurt me in more than one way and leave me with nothing in the end.

I wouldn't say I hate myself for it though. It's the way things go sometimes. I'm also scared that if I were to be able to altar anything in my past that I may not ever meet Steve. =/ Sometimes horrible things happen in order for you to receive the good things.

 

[xXOtakuMasterXx]

i dont have allot to say as far as that chick go's infact this is it -

as for what i regret trading a mirror force and exodia the forbidden one for psychic kapa when i was just starting to play yugioh because it looked cool (this is when legend of blue eyes and metal raiders was new)

 

[Warbsywoo]

Since I only remember embarassing moments, I'm usually almost always ashamed of things I've done.

It's never the "Oh good job you won the quiz bee championship" or the "Nice trip to Paris" memories but it's the "I stuttered 5 times in the middle of an important speech in front of 2000 people" kind of memories.

So nope, I'm not particularly proud of those moments but I don't regret them either. Not like it ever harmed anybody but myself and what can I do, it's done and over.