Serious I've reached something of an epiphany

Tmoo

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I realized earlier today, sitting in one of the campus labs after taking a test, that i no longer enjoyed learning. This realization explained just about all of the problems i've had with the education system since primary school. Somewhere along the way, I forgot my love of learning new things, or rather I stopped wanting to learn after a certain point. The answer was right in front of me and it took me until now to see it.

Now that I have this crucial bit of knowledge about myself, I feel the world's opened up to me, if only just a bit, and I can move forward again.

Just wanted to share what I think is a significant moment. I hope the rest of you find your way too if you haven't already.

I'm usually a somewhat detached person even in real life, but right now I feel like giving everyone a hug for no reason other than being alive and wishing you well.
 
Though I am glad that you came to an epiphany that's made you happy, maybe you should examine it a bit more closely. You say you no longer enjoy learning, but that seems like an unlikely scenario to me. Is it possibly that you simply don't enjoy learning the topics in your course? Or even that subject?

You said you've had problems with the education system for a long time now, well it seems quite probable that your problem is with institutionalised learning and not the concept of learning itself. I don't mean to infer that your epiphany is incorrect, maybe just think on the whole 'not enjoying learning' thing a bit more.
 
i wrote what i was feeling at the time. 'worldly interest' is probably what i should have used in place of 'learning'. i still have a problem with institutionalized education, but i've found a way to make it work to my benefit (and that was only part of the bigger problem). either way i feel much better now than i did before. the most significant moments in your life can sometimes be the least eventful.
 
The way I see it is..

The only fun I've ever had in learning was when it was not forced, aka college. I loved Calculus 2. I didn't have to take it, I could of taken Trig. Which to me trig is bs for my major, but more useful in every day life.

Accounting I had to take, I hate algorithms made of complete bs. We made a system in which we can budget our accounts and basically audit the hell out of people when they don't keep their books up. I agree with this, but at the same time, if you are in a business major why the hell is accounting required? Aside from balancing a few books, and your check book. How often are you going to be the one who's going to be doing inventory, expense reports, Balance sheets, T records with assets/liabilities/owner's equity?

I mean people are hired to do that. My major was MIS and I did very well in coding, but accounting and finance? Sheesh. That has no application to me except Cash flows and Budgeting. So of course it was boring and of course I blew arse at it. All it was this...

Take a 10 line paragraph and then take the money figures out of it and do this that and the other as far as calculations go. Whether it be trying to figure how much overhead was used while Manufacturing a product, how much depreciation of land, or how much interest accrued on a car note or how much salary to budget per employees, all of that crap to me was like french. I never learned it for fun because I just wasn't interested in it. I'm more scientific mathematical, than I am busy work mathematical.

I took the business side in code, due to I'm better at communication and love interacting. I don't like to be the labrat in the back who's under paid, just to one day maybe get lucky like in the music biz and create that one amazing piece of software. While I do my job, I have a lot of other areas I tap into. So that's why I went the business route, even if I thought most of the classes I took for business repeated the same rhetoric. Management/Marketing - Economics/Statistics.. etc.
 
Well I understand what you mean buy disliking something you're being forced to learn

I understand in some respects that subjects may be obligatory due to the nature of a course. For example, when we were doing business studies in junior cycle of secondary school, we were given a decent grounding in economics and accounting. Which personally I hated, but it made sense for people who wanted to pursue one of those subjects when they became available in senior cycle.

However now that I'm in university I'm being forced to take maths as part of my science degree, and I don't really see why. None of my other subjects require a high level of mathematical aptitude(the course's math requirement was a C in lower level maths iirc). However in first year I had to do Differential and Integral Calculus, as well as linear algebra, and data analysis. Then this year because I'm doing computer science as a subject, I had to keep on maths again, and not once have I had to apply anything beyond basic computation.

Though all in all, I wouldn't of minded doing maths as an elective
 
I had an epiphany one time, let me tell you

Ok so I was an architectural major with only less than a year to finish school, yet I dropped out due to my lack of intrest and my family had some financial problems and I moved close to home, working to help out at an Insurance telemarketing job.

I applied online for yellowstone national park and all they offered me was a crappy 7$ and hour dishwashing job in the heart of the park so I turned down the contract.

I thought life was going to run into a dead end and feared that I just wouldnt never find what I wanted because I had no idea what it was to begin with.

Than one day, I was sitting with an annoying angry old man on the phone at work who demanded to speak to my supervisor, I let him on with her....

And out of no where I walked directly out of that shitty job, leaving my boss on the phone, I called yellowstone park and took the job only for the experience, forgetting the money.

It led to the greatest adventures of my life, I worked two summers in the beautiful mountains quickly moving from dishwasher to a Cook 1 position, even made a salmon for president Obama when he and his family came, and met a very smart chinese women of the same age(perfect english) who was working a similiar contract in America in between getting her masters. I traveled to China and India with her as a tourist, and she even came back to America and we both worked in San diego for a year together. After that we left towards Beijing China together and I have been here one year working a high salary as an English teacher with little previous background to start off with. And since than my father started and architectural company and wants me to be his partner when I return. And I am now engaged to the love of my life with and amazing romance story on both of our sides. We spent our first two years together climbing mountains and traveling strange countries.


Sometimes the true destiny of life does not come until you least expect it to, but as long as you follow your heart I think you will always find what you truly want.
 
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