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I have a little something to say to everyone.
I guess that it's in order for me to apologize for my behavior today (and as of late in general). It really was not necessary to take my anger out on anyone as I did in the feedback section, let alone a newb.

To be quite honest, I am not completely sure if it is a wise choice to have me as a member of staff right now; I suppose that's up to the rest of you guys to decide.
I am dealing with a small but significant number of personal issues at the moment (as I'm sure we all have at one point in time or another). Of course, I did mention to everyone that I am somewhat unhealthy at the moment, and I did indicate that it's nothing that can't be treated over time. Incidentally, I am undergoing treatment right now, I am on a strict diet, and I have been for the last week. As much as I wish I could use this as an excuse for my retched behavior, I really can't...

I wholeheartedly feel that I am an emotional bombshell at the moment in response to my current state, and that I do not belong on staff; (being as that what LA said about setting an example for the site is true) and I honestly can't set a good example right now.

I'm all choked up to be talking about this, but it's 100% from me to you personal information. I just want everyone to understand that I'm not lashing out at anyone for persnickety reasons.
Of course, I will still remain active here, but I don't wish to hold the responsibilities and the pressures of staffliness.
 
Rhea, take a break but dont drop staff. We all take breaks so no reason to force yourself. Just relax.
 
What Holic said.
No need to drop staff cause of feeling ill or something like that.
 
It's not like that though. I plan on feeling ill like this for at least 4 or 5 months. It's not a cold; unfortunately I'm having heart problems because of it, and it's very disheartening and stressful.
As I said, I like being here, but I don't think that I want that stress on my shoulders right now. =\
 
I learned the hard way, that working on staff whilst undergoing 'irl' pressure and hardships isn't good. The only person who can actually remove you is never around anymore, so you're a bit fucked on that front... but you can always just drop it in principle.

Good luck with what you're doing.
 
It'll be a shame to see you go Rhea but you need to do what you feel is best for yourself and the forum. I read your myspace bulletin and i can understand how bad you must feel. Feel free to spam my inbox if you need someone to talk to ;)
 
Hmm, you do what you think is best for you. It'll be cool if you don't drop out of staff as you are the "voice" here for most people. Don't know if that makes any sense, but like you said, you're one of the few who are more lax with everyone and I'm sure they'll appreciate you sticking around staff.

But don't force yourself. Your health is more important, of course. So if you feel that you can't really take the pressure anymore, then that's fine and understandable too. If you do get out of staff, I'm sure you can always go back when you're ready or something. ;)


 
Good luck Rhea. ;)

Your health should, obviously, come before all this. I can only hope all turns out OK in the end.
 
While I'm sorry to see you go, I completely understand why. Your health is more important and all the added stress from this place won't do you any good. Good luck with everything and please continue to stay active and keep us updated on what's going on with your health. Take care of yourself. That should be your #1 priority.
 
If you really think that leaving the staff is what is best for you, then do it. You dont need to have more health problems because of having to worry about things here. Watch over yourself first. And if you want to come back, i think i speak for many when I say you will warmly welcomed.
 
When it comes to your personal health, be as selfish as you bloody can xD I know, through my mum, that having bad health isn't exactly easy and I've read in various places that you're going through a wee health scare yourself right now. As the others have said, though ... just relax. It is, afterall, just an internet forum. Distance yourself from drama you might see and just 'concentrate' on the stuff that only that you need to. Feel free to send a barrage of comments o'er myspazz [:

Ironically, this sounds like a LEAVING THREAD :P
 
As bad as it would be to see you leave staff, since you always seem to have the member's best interests at heart, and actually dare to do things without taking past the head man, you have to do whatever it takes to make you better. Good luck with whatever you choose to do.
 
Well guys...^__^
It's not that being here is putting "strain" on me necessarily. I just can't be a reliable staff member right now, and I may or may not be active as much as I would like to be.
I've been on the road to treatment for a week now, however, things are not looking better for me quite yet. My boyfriend sincerely wants me to visit the doctor more often; he's even talking about leaving me at the hospital for a few days because my chest pains are getting worse.
Kind of scary. =S
 
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