Well first off heres the story behind all this. Back in March I was going out with this guy named Will. I really liked him and stuff. well things went great on the first date, then 2 weeks later he suddenly dumped me, saying it was for the best since he was going off to college, and he shouldn't be with anyone. Not even a month later he was going out with my friend Christina. then in July i got this.
Amanda:
I'm really sorry. I should have done this a long time ago. You deserve to know what was really going on from my end.
Well, I'm sure you know that Elise and I were together for 3 months short of a year my Junior year. If you didn't, you do now. Well, we were happy until February last year and she finally broke up with me that March.
So, after that I started getting really depressed. It would come in waves. At first it was because I was heart-broken, but then it turned into just needing to be cared for, wanting to love. I started going through hug withdrawals. I needed physical contact.
I was at one of those really low points this past February/March. I needed someone I could talk to, an outlet. I had my third-cousin, but she was far away and I felt like I was bothering her all the times with all my problems. I decided I needed an outlet who was closer.
I decided I would try to make that person you. That was mostly because I get really nervous around girls I like, and I wasn't attracted to you at all and you seemed nice enough. But by the time I might have figured out how to do that, those problems had passed. I was still feeling down and wanting someone, a significant other, to be with.
Honestly, when you asked me to that movie, I really only did it to be polite. Well, what happened throughout the course of that evening and beyond happened because I was depressed. To quote one of the greatest musical of all time, "The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and to be loved in return." That's what I wanted, to love and be loved in return. But I was so down, I fell for a cheap imitation. I could see that you (maybe) cared for me. Or that you were at least going to give me the physical contact that I missed so much.
I fell for the cheap thrills of lust. I'm sorry. The truth is that I've never had any sort of feelings about you other than that. I'm really sorry. I should have told you back in March instead of leading you on. Please forgive me. If you're angry and hate me now, I understand. I'm profoundly and sincerely sorry.
Will
So yeah. well i hadn't heard much from him since then. until last night. I freaked when he IMed and i closed the window. I reopened and thats where this starts.
Oh and it says Throes of Lust because i nicknamed him that on MSN one night that I was feeling particularly bitchy at him lol.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
hi Will.
Throes of Lust says:
Hey
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
Haven't talked to you in a while
Throes of Lust says:
Nope.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
how are things in college?
Throes of Lust says:
Meh
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
meh?
Throes of Lust says:
Yup
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
awww
Throes of Lust says:
You may see a pattern here. College has turned me predominately monosyllabic.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
that sucks
Throes of Lust says:
Nah. Not really.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
so what did you do for thanksgiving?
Throes of Lust says:
Went to my Aunt's house.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
cool. did you have fun?
Throes of Lust says:
I guess. I don't really know any of these people.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
you'll be coming back out here for Christmas though right? so you'll get to see your family and everything
Throes of Lust says:
Yup. Direct flights both ways. Simply amazing.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
Awesome
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh I met Paul lol he seems pretty nice
Throes of Lust says:
Really? Not uber reclusive?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well yeaah pretty reclsive too, but nice
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
hes very quiet lol
Throes of Lust says:
So... What's with this "In a relationship" facebook business?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well i have a boyfriend named Chris
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
he lives in south carolina which kinda sucks, but we manage
Throes of Lust says:
And how'd that happen?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I met him online a year ago
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and we've talked like everyday since
Throes of Lust says:
Sort of a creepy way to meet people.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
dont worry hes not a 40 year old man
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol i know Shelley says the same thing
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but i know hes definitely a 18 year old boy
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
we talk to each other on the phone all the time, and we have webcams so we can see eachother
Throes of Lust says:
I have a webcam too. Stupid, stupid impulse purchase...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Throes of Lust says:
How'd you go about meeting this guy online?
Will says:
A sleezy internet dating service?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
Myspace, randomly added em
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
*me
Will says:
Hm... My friend's doing a similar thing with a guy in Oklahoma with facebook messaging. I keep warning her. She doesn't listen. And she already has a boyfriend.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
wowo
Will says:
Except she's not having that oklahoma guy as a boyfriend.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
see i didn't already have a boyfriend
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but i trust Chris, and he trusts me
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and we both know that we arent some old person pretending to be a teenager
Will says:
Well, as far as relationships are concerned, I'm ripped and torn and say "Phooey" on them all.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
aww
Will says:
There's just so much pressure to date and get married. Even now BEFORE my mission.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack
Will says:
You'd think that there would be more point to college.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
seriously
Will says:
But I say meh. I don't care. I've given up. I'm almost positive that I'm not supposed to be in a relationship now, anyway.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
awww
Will says:
Meh. I don't need "awwww"ing. I need friends and people I can be with so that I don't get like I have been this break.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
Will says:
That's still the same sound.
Will says:
But whatever.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well you know I'm your friend and you can talk to me if you are feeling down
Will says:
So, I have a potentially akward question that I've been wondering since, well, since we were "together".
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
okay?
Will says:
So, um... How far were you willing to go with me?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
O.O
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
um i really dont know
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i never really thought about that
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
at the time i was just happy with hugging and kissing lol
Will says:
I was... ripped in two. The carnal, and the spiritual/intellectual.
Will says:
Yeah. We were sort of past where I wanted to be. We definitely did it the wrong way. Oh how I wish I had another shot at a first kiss...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
Will I really don't know hat to say about that to be honest
Will says:
Well, it's true.
Will says:
I regret what we did almost every day.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I'm sorry
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i really just don't know what to say
Will says:
That's fine. And you, at least seemed to, understood when I told you the truth and that I really only did that for the physical. I had this goal. I had to have my first kiss before I left high school. And... yeah.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well just so you know you were my first kiss too
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and before that i didnt think i would ever have one before i left high school
Will says:
Interesting that we jumped straight to 15 minutes at a time without a breath.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
kinda
Will says:
Wow... I must really have been desparate...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well i must have too cuz you didnt see me stopping you
Will says:
Well, in my defense, you were the instigator.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah. I kinda was
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
sorry
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
All I really wanted that evening was what I always want, a cuddle.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well in my defense i was really happy so i couldn't help myself. I had liked you for a really long time
Will says:
Now I'm curious... Was the nipple rubbing in the movie intentional?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
no.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
that was not
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
when it happened i was like OMG what the crud he'll think im some sort of whore
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i was holding your hands and i accidentally placed them there and panicked after that
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i was so emmbarressed
Will says:
Oh. I meant your hand on mine.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah thats what i meant too
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i think? watt im cpnfused
Will says:
Never mind.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
no tell me
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i think i know what you are talking about
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but im not sure
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i was holding your ands and i accidentally placed them... on me.
Will says:
Yup
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
that was purely an accident
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i totally freaked out in my head at that point
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and when i got home
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i was like i can not believe i did that
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
he probably thinks im a whore
Will says:
I think that night brought out the worst in both of us.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
mayhaps
Will says:
Definitely my greatest weakness...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well I'm sorry about how everything went and all and how it all turned out
Will says:
I've got laundry to move. BRB
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
because i really did like you a lot
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol okay
Will says:
Back
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
welcome back
Will says:
How much did you like me?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
a lot.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well to be honest
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i kinda developed a crush on you in 7th grade
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
see there was a choir thing at twain and i met you there
Will says:
What? Then? I'd never even seen you until the end of my junior year.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah you did. I knew you wouldn't remember lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
there was a dance thing we did for a choir concert a twain
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
it got cut
Will says:
Was it the rock-a-thon? Were you playing star-wars monopoly with me?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but you were there in it with me
Will says:
Oh?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
no
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
So... confused...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah but i remembered you because i had these mouse socks on and you liked them lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i know thats random, but thats how i remember metting you
Will says:
Don't remember that at all.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol i didnt think you would
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and well i kinda wore those socks that night as a good luck charm lol
Will says:
Oh. Wow. They must've worked for you, then.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i guess so
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well anyway after that i didnt see you until 9th grade
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but i remebered you
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but you were with Elise so i chalked it up as oh well he probably wouldn't like me anyway
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and then i liked Seth, but i always found you kinda cute
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and then last year you were in choir
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and we know how it went from there
Will says:
Well, I was always in choir.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i mean in my class
Will says:
I know.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
that was my first year in choir at edison lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and only. i didnt get choir this year for some reason
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but oh well
Will says:
Wow. I don't know what it is, but... I think I've changed a lot already since starting college.
Will says:
I definitely look at myself more. Internally. External looking stays the same.
Will says:
I've learned, mostly from the recent two-week almost relationship that I had, that people need to talk with each other. Especially in relationships. That's why Elise and I were so unhappy at the end, we didn't talk.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah.
Will says:
I mean, it just feels so good to talk about things. Even this. I thought I was over this, but talking with you about it sure feels so much better.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
it does feel a lot better
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
because even though we have been over for quite a while i have wondered many time what it would have been like if we stayed together, or if there was something i could have done differently that would have kept us together
Will says:
Honestly, I don't think there is anything that could've kept it going. I'm surprised that I let it go that far. I was depressed, and needy, and... Not up to my standards. If I had been, I would actually have known what was going on in Ghost Rider.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
Will says:
And would not have been disgusted at myself when I saw HP5.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
?
Will says:
Harry's first kiss reminded me entirely too much of my own.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
Will says:
Oh... I so desparately wish that I could take it back and have my first kiss the right way.
Will says:
But... I really do miss kisses...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i do too lol you were the last person i did kiss
Will says:
You for me, too.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
wow i never thought i would be talking to you about this lol
Will says:
Meh. I seem to have many potentially akward conversations. I manage to keep them not akward.
Will says:
They just need to be talked about. Well, okay, most of them don't and we just talk about them because we're bored. But still.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh did you ever find any Dr. Pepper up there that wasn't caffine free?
Will says:
Only at the mall in vending machines.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
damn
Will says:
Oh... That's right. I had forgotten about the commonality of that word.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol sorry
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i usually dont curse too much
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but like right now im lina in like a wow this is random kinda mood where random things are popping out lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
Ikinda in
Will says:
It really is very sheltered here. It even looks like it. I feel like I'm in some 3rd grader's science project. Bowled in by the mountains.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
wow
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i almost sent you some regular dr. pepper, but i didn't know if you would like want me to, becuase latley i was kinda sure that you didn't want to talk to me anymore
Will says:
Well... Up until just when we started talking, I had you blocked.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
eh. I'm not suprised
Will says:
I'm not sure how the DP would survive the trip. I could easilly get some, it's just not worth the effort of going to Kmart.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
Will says:
*sigh* Now I'm wanting a hug/cuddle/kiss...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
sorry? I really can't help ya anythere
Will says:
Nope.
Will says:
And the thing about the kiss is that it's entirely situational. Everything has to be just right.
Will says:
But the hug, I could probably get. Maybe even a cuddle.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
mayhap
Will says:
*sigh* Physicality, and more what comes from it, is my largest inner demon.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I'm sorry. I wish i could help in some way, but i cant. patially distance, and it might be akward
Will says:
Yeah. Well, since we're being entirely honest here, that time I wanted to get toghether at the end of the summer, but you were either gone or leaving, remember that?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
Will says:
Well, I was really just hoping to recreate that first night.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i was at the cabin
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i was actually wishing to see you before you left too
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but i couldnt we went on vacation
Will says:
Well I didn't do a single thing all summer.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i saw you twice over the summer
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i passed you in the car
Will says:
Yup.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i was like oh hey look its Will!
Will says:
I could tell.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
Yup... I'll be back for Christmas. Don't know what my schedule will be like. I know I have optometrist and dentist appointments.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well maybe we can see eachother if you do have time
Will says:
Maybe. I know that I am definitely going to Sweeney Todd.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
it'd be nice to see you again
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
Not going to wait and somehow get to the theater here and then be sunned for it.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
Will says:
I said sunned... What does that even mean? I meant shunned.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i didnt know what you meant either i was kinda like wha?
Will says:
So... Where are you looking at applying to?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
no idea
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
im most likely going to nova
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I dont have good enough grades for anything else
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I'm not doing well in english at all
Will says:
Who do you have?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
Kiggins
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
the double entry journals are killing me
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
in Ms Browns class we didnt do them so im like the only person in classs who doesnt have practice doing them
Will says:
Ugh... Why? Why? Why did I have to be so corrupted?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
?
Will says:
Oh. When you said "the double entry journals are killing me"... Curse you double entendre!!! CURSE YOU!!!! *shakes fist*
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
okay? lol
Will says:
I didn't realize that you were that innocent. Now I'm really feeling corrupted...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
im not as innocent as you might think. trust me
Will says:
I must boil the filth from my brain. Get me a pot!
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i just dont know what you are talking about
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i am definitely NOT innocent
Will says:
Double entry...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
now i get it
Will says:
Scour the filth! Get it out!
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
eh its alright
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i just weasnt in that frame of mind at the moment
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I've read worse in fnfics
Will says:
Well, it's not a particularly good frame of mind to be in.
Will says:
And I knew that you weren
Will says:
't innocent.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah but im in that frame of mind a lot
Will says:
That's why I was wondering how far you would've gone with me.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh. lol
Will says:
So... How did you decide that it was time to say to this online persona, "Hey, you're my boyfriend now. K?"
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
actauully he asked me out
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but i had liked him for months
Will says:
And how'd that work out for ya, being so far away? Was it a nice first date?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well obviously we havent been on any dates, but hes going to come here and visit,
Will says:
Hm... This is wrong. He can be your friend, that's fine. But... boyfriend/girlfriend status and you haven't even met in person... No. It can't work out that way.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
meh you sound like shelley
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
be right
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
*brb
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
back
Will says:
Well, it's true. I mean, the staples of boy/girlfriend-dom are:
Hand holding
Clearly different from casual hugs
Cuddling
Kissing
Kissing more often and passionately than neccessary
Other things of the sort
Will says:
Mostly physical stuff.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
not for us
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
we manage just fine without
Will says:
I would just say that you're good friends, then.
Will says:
Unless you're uttering those words that really should be saved for that one, eternal companion.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yepwe are
Will says:
I mean, I've said them before. To a girl. But different context. She's my best friend, and we have a brother/sister relationship. Ish.
Will says:
And I doubt that you can really mean it. I mean, you don't even really know him. Just what he says he is online.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well we do. so yeah
Will says:
I tut at you.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
okay? that wont change the fact that me and Chris do in fact love each other.
Will says:
You know. There are things drastically wrong with relationships both in and outside of the mormon world.
Will says:
Outside: Saying things like "I love you" when they aren't really meant and what is meant is "I lust after you". Moving in without even considering marriage. Living together for years and years without so much as a single utterance of the word "marriage".
Will says:
Inside: You meet on Monday, date on Wednesday, get engagued on Friday, get married at the end of the girl's first semester in college.
Will says:
And not so much as a single kiss or utterance of the words "I love you" until you're over the altar.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
wow
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well me and Chris dont "lust after each other" we actually o care about each other
Will says:
Well, that's good.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yep
Will says:
Just don't go too far, because I can almost guarantee that it won't work out.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well you think what you want, who know, it might work out.
Will says:
Meh.
Will says:
I'm gonna try to keep out of relationships for the next seven months.
Will says:
And then, after that there'll be two years.
Will says:
And after that... I just hope that I don't go and marry the first girl I see.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i hope you don't either, because i do hope you find someone who makes you happy.
Will says:
Me too.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I know that you will. you are a very nice guy, and you are rather cute, wow i hope that doesnt sound too weird
Will says:
Only because I've only ever been called attractive once by someone who wasn't an old lady.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
see i dont really know whow to say it without sounding weird, but you are very handsome.
Will says:
Thanks...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well its true, even though i most likely shouldn't be saying this
Will says:
Whatever. I know, and you subconsciously know, that it can't work out between you and Chris, so it doesn't really matter.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
meh. i know it will work out between me and Chris.
Will says:
Okay...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
sorry i probably sound really stupid
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but i really do think it will
Will says:
I hope you realize that working out could be you two not being together, right?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
Will says:
Good.
Will says:
Well, I gotta get some food. I will probably be back before too long.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
okay
Will says:
Back
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
welcome back
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
did you have a good lunch?
Will says:
Haven't eaten it yet.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
So, is Chris the first since me?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yep
Will says:
Well, have fun with that.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i know it may seem strange that im so sure that it will work even though we havent even met, but i just kinda am
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i dont really know how to explain it
Will says:
Meh. I know how that is. It's exciting. Makes you optimistic.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
Will says:
*sigh* I miss the feeling of being in love.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I'm sorry
Will says:
Don't be. I'm probably happier this way, anyway.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
Will says:
But it really is the greatest feeling in the world to love and be loved.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
Will says:
So... do you have any ideas what you want to go into?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
Forensic Science
Will says:
That's right.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
DNA analysis more specifically
Will says:
Don't know that you'll be able to to that too well from NOVA.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i know
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but i don't know how well that is going to work out since i am like terribly afraid of blood
Will says:
Well, thy bring the samples in, you look at a computer screen. Not too much contact.
Will says:
they*
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
with DNA there is kinda
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i even have issues seeing blood
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
like in animal science on monday we were grooming a dog, and we nicked the dogs' nerve in the nail and it was bleeding really badly and i was like @.@
Will says:
Well, don't think of it as blood. Tell yourself that it's just some red liquid.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I'll try
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
so what do you want to go into?
Will says:
And if you're worried about getting into a college with your grades, you could try Southern Virginia University. Then you could pretend that you're in CSI: SVU.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
It's an unafiliate Mormon school, but they practially beg for people.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
;
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
*lol
Will says:
What do I want to go into?
Will says:
Museum Studies.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ooh cool
Will says:
Yup. I'm shooting for NYU, but that all depends on my GRE score.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
GRE?
Will says:
Grad school exam.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
Will says:
I'll be taking it in about five years. I'm almost positive that I'll fail the math.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I'm no good at math either
Will says:
Well, it's not helped that I don't ever have to take another math class.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol well no that doesnt help
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
its kinda funny really, i have Mrs Iredell for math, and she remembered me from 3rd grade when i said i had a crush on her son ben :/
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
she said oh hi! i remember you and i was like oh god.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
she even asked if i still like ben
Will says:
Have you ever not had a crush on someone?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
actually from the time we broke up to when i liked chris i didnt have a crush on anyone, and before ben i didnt
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but i liked ben from 3-8th and seth from 8th to 11th
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
which is really sad.
Will says:
That's quite the streak.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well technically i liked you from 7th to 11th too
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
wow. i wasted nine years of my life.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh and Seth STILL thinks i like him
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I'm like oh my god get over yourself
Will says:
Nice contrast to me, though. I wonder how anybody would or could like me.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
he even apparently brags to his friends that Katie Rowe and i still fight over him, whic hactually we are friends now
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i liked you
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
because i thought you were nice, and funny and cute
Will says:
Well, nobody else, really. I mean, Elise did at the beginning.
Will says:
That was an interesting thing.
Will says:
So close, it probably actually was taboo.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
?
Will says:
We were together before she was 16.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i get it.
Will says:
She denies that it happened, though.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack
Will says:
But whatever. She can do what she wants. I know it happened. She knows it happened. I know it was a mistake, but I wouldn't do it over again.
Will says:
Or, I would. I wouldn't change it. That's my point.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
to be honest i think i would do us all over again and not change it. It was nice while it lasted
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
even if things went kinda fast
Will says:
Kinda fast? Try skipping the whole first two parts of an actual relationship.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
thats true
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but keep in mind i didnt really know how a normal relationship went
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
you were the first person i was ever in a relationship with
Will says:
Do you know now?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
Will says:
Because this one you're in sure isn't normal.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i know you dont skip stright to making out
Will says:
That's good.
Will says:
That was... weird.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
you actually take the time to get to know the person, talk to them
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
it kinda was
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but at the same time i didn't know if it was normal or not then
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i just kinda went with it
Will says:
Went with it? You were the one who got the make-out ball rolling.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i did? you kinda kissed me first. i know i kissed you on the cheek a few time, but also, i didnt exactly know how to kiss either
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
so maybe i did
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i dont know
Will says:
I may have turned my head while you were kissing my cheek.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i think thats what happend
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and it went from there
Will says:
Yup.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
sorry. didnt mean for it to go that fast
Will says:
Well, it went quite fast. I think we covered most forms of kissing in about twenty minutes.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
owo
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
*wow
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i had no idea
Will says:
Some were really quick stops. Others took more time.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well sorry i made it go fast. I really didnt mean to
Will says:
It was my fault too.
Will says:
I mean, more than once, I was practically down your throat.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
kinda, but i dont think i minded much lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
wow. this is most definitely the weirdest conversation i have ever had lol
Will says:
I've had more... interesting ones.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh?
Will says:
Yes.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
I'm glad you didn't ask me, because I think there's really only one person who I could talk about those things like that with.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol yeah i wouldnt ask you about them. i wouldnt want to put you in an akward position
Will says:
Well, the first one started out being akward. She thought it was hilarious.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
So, I'm going to the Holy War tomorrow.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
what?
Will says:
And getting paid for it.
Will says:
The biggest game of the year.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
?
Will says:
Football.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh
Will says:
BYU
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
Utah State
Will says:
Yeah, it looks like Shelob came and wrapped up all the statues on campus.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
why are you getting paid for it?
Will says:
I'm working as extra event staff.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ooh
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I'm totally broke lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
the anime convention was last weekend so yeah
Will says:
Fun.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
it was indeed
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
we saw a concert
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
at the con, and they were really good
Will says:
I went to an opera here.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I've never been to an opera before
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
was it neat?
Will says:
I quite enjoyed it. One of the few things that I've seen that actually deserved a standing ovation.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
neat!
Will says:
It was very funny. I love Mozart...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i do too. i was just listening to Lacrimosa actually
Will says:
That's fun.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yep
Will says:
So, were you in HSM?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
no thank god
Will says:
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i auditioned but didnt make it
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
if i had i wouldn't have been able to go to the convention
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol Paul said that HSM was hell
Will says:
Yup. Well, he did get kidnapped and had his hair forcibly straightened.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
wow
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
when was this?
Will says:
Intermission closing night.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
damn
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i went opening night
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
wow i hope there are pictures lol
Will says:
Of Paul? There aren't. I checked.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
darn lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
that would have been funny
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i wonder how long his hair is straightened
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
Well, those girls had been wondering for a year.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
so have you been in any productions there?
Will says:
No. I doubt I'd get cast in anything, anyway.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
why do you doubt it?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
you were really good in Zap and Abner
Will says:
Because everybody here is incredibly more talented than me in everything.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
Will says:
Well, not singing. Only half the people here are better than me at singing.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well i always thought you were really good at singing
Will says:
Yup. Nothing makes you feel talentless and worthless like BYU.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack brb moose and sandy are giving me the i need to go outside look
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I'm back
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i just got yanked through the woods because they saw another dog
Will says:
Fun
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yep
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Will says:
I don't even know why. Just because.
You have accepted the invitation to start sending webcam.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
okay
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
brb though its really dark in herr
Will says:
Woo.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
*here
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol now im all shy
Will says:
You have to look down to type?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
im not very good still
Will says:
That's inconvenient.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yep
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i try not to but i suck
Will says:
That's what practice is for.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i've been practicing,
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i think im getting better though
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
brb
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~*-Amanda-*~ says:
the dogs wont stop barking
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh hey you have glasses on
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and you got a haircut
Will says:
I need another. That was weird.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
monkey?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
what in the world?
Will says:
Yup.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
silly Will
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
now mona lisa
Will says:
That one's not working...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
mine doesnt have fun things
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
its a will!
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
THose ones aren't working. I think it's because of the glasses.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
maybe?
Will says:
It's being weird.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
Maybe I shouldn't have turned it on. Now you can see my nasty bedroom.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
eh my room is worse
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
my comp is in my living room though so
Will says:
Fun.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
now im all like agh i look terrible lol
Will says:
Whatever. I haven't shaved in three days.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
you look fine
Will says:
Meh. See me in two weeks when I'm in my prime for the Stach Atack.
Will says:
Stache*
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
this is kinda weird. i mean i havent seen you in a really long time, you look the same but different in a way
Will says:
Meh
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
brb i need water. i havent had anything to drink today
Will says:
Yup. I haven't really been hydrated since I came out here.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah so I'm in piano this year
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
aww
Will says:
Fun. I guess.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
meh I'm not very good
Will says:
Probably better than me.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
idk
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
we have a recital on the 12th, and i am doing sleigh ride, and its terrible
Will says:
That's fun.
Will says:
Not really.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
*yawn*
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
blarg I really wish i didn't have english
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
the journals are really killing me
Will says:
I really wish I didn't have tests or grades.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well I'm sure you are doing better than i am in school
Will says:
I don't know. I haven't gotten over an 84 on a test yet.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
thats better than i have been doing
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
right now i have a 60 in english
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and i hav a C in math
Will says:
Wow. I don't even want to know what I have in Archaeology.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah english is hell. not only are thejournals killing me but the oral commentarries too
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
*commentaries
Will says:
Oral commentaries are easy.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
not for me
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
especially the blind commentaries
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
see i have trouble remembering literary terms
Will says:
the blind ones are the easiest because you're not supposed to know anything about it.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and thats one thing that screws me up
Will says:
BRB
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
me too phone
Will says:
So, what're you up to?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
welcome back
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
nothing really
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ust sitting here
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
im home alone. mom is out shopping, dad and luke went to my uncles hose to play Xbox
Will says:
Fun, I guess.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
meh
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh so did you get the mario vs sonic olypics game?
Will says:
I didn't know it was out. And I don't have my Wii out here.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack!
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
why dont you?
Will says:
Because my family/brother/sister/dad wouldn't have it.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
aww
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
that really sucks
Will says:
Don't even have a TV.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack! that REALLY sucks
Will says:
Not really. I watch my TV online.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i do sometimes
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but then again all i watch is CSI
Will says:
I actually watch quite a lot. More than I should, definitely.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
So... How's your next semester look?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
um... i have..
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
Animal Science Goverment, anatomy, Fil and English
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
*film
Will says:
That'll be fun.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yep
Will says:
Distracted by dogs, I see.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yep
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
Sandy keeps coming over
Will says:
That's fun.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I'm probably taking her to school sometime soon for grooming
Will says:
Ah
Will says:
But, no I don't have my Wii. I do have my DS.
Will says:
I got something for it, too.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
Will says:
I like my quill stylus.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i got my pwn DS finallt
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
*finally
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
hang on
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol it was right next to me
Will says:
A pinky one.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i still only have Pokemon and FF3 for it
Will says:
Phantom Hourglass is so much fun.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i want that game
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
all my friends have it
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but i dont.
Will says:
Hm... Can't see that emoticon.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
aww
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
its a bunny
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
we call it fussy bunny lol
Will says:
*sigh* Yup, I'm bored.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
I could go see my friend(s) in the town to the north, but I only have enough change for the bus one way.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
meh i have NOT been in a pokemon playing mood lately
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
every time i turn it on i get bored way fast
Will says:
I haven't really played anything since I got Phantom Hourglass.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol thats like me with Tekken 5
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and Final Fantasy XII
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i finally got FFXII lol
Will says:
Fun
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i don't really like the battle system in FFXII tho
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
is not the same as in FF8 and all the other Final Fantsay games
Will says:
Ah
Will says:
I mean, that I haven't played ANYTHING since I got and beat Phantom Hourglass.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack
Will says:
And I wasn't playing anything before I got it, either.
Will says:
Not enough time.
Will says:
Not that I study or do my homework... *looks ashamed*
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol i dont really syudy or do homework either
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
*study
Will says:
And I'm in an apartment with three valedictorians.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
That would've felt really nice if my face wasn't so scratchy.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol so i'm assuming you saw my senior pics on facebook
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
im kinda like shy about them
Will says:
Well, one of them.
Will says:
Hm... He hasn't posted my Cha-cha test score yet...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol you take dance?
Will says:
Yup
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
thats neat!
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i still can;t dance
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
Well, I can't really either.
Will says:
Ah, I see. If you see one, you've seen all of them. I didn't order mine. I missed the actual day, too.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
??
Will says:
Senior pictures.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i had to do the makeup day
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and it was really funny too
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i went in there and they asked if i broaght a tube top
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and im like no i dont own one
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
so they gave me this piece of cloth shaped like a tube top, and i had to go from the lecture hall to the bathroom by the subschool in the science hall
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
change into it and come back
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and i walked through the hall
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and like
Will says:
Fun.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
this much of me was expossed
Will says:
How much?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and of course like 20 guys happened to be in the hallway so i was like O.O and like ran back
Will says:
Fun.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
it was awful
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and then i had to go back and do the same thing once they were done
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and yet again more guys in the hall
Will says:
You know, you're surprisingly modest for one so corrupt.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
*hides*
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah. i am kinda modest.
Will says:
He he he he...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
gah its cold in here
Will says:
Argh! My eye's have been bothering me all day...
Will says:
eyes*
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
the thermostat always says 74 but its like freezing.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and i dont know how to set this thermostat
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
we got a new one
Will says:
That's fun. It was like barely 60 in here last night, so I set it up. I woke up this morning and it was 80 in here.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
im gonna grab a blanket
Will says:
K
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yay. warmyness
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
gah i look like a smurf again
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
we dont know why but sometimes i appear blue on this cam
Will says:
That could be remedied by turning on a light.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
all of them are on
Will says:
What are you doing?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
moving things on the table to pull the lamp closer
Will says:
Ah.
Will says:
Are you having fun?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i dont know? lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and i just noticed my shirt was falling down. fun.
Will says:
I noticed that you were fixing the wrong side.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah im trying to do it in the cam and it messes me up sometimes
Will says:
Yeah.
Will says:
Are you really that cold?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
its always really cold in here
Will says:
I would (with great potential of being akward) hold you if I were there. I like holding people. Mmmmm... snuggling...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol I think you would run into problems with Chris for that
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
he'd be mad lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
though really he couldnt do anything about it
Will says:
Meh. I've already made one boyfriend named Chris upset this month.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
*sigh* I wish I could have a massage...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well i would (with the great potential of being akward) give you a massage if i were there lol
Will says:
Hmm... While I appreciate the gesture, I remember the one time I tried to get you to give me one...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh yeah in choir practice that one time
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and i was sick lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i was bad at it
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
sorry lol
Will says:
S'fine.
Will says:
So...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
Ooff... I am tired. Yup. A cuddle to snuggle to nap would be nice.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
Ow... Okay. I officially can't do it myself.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
Yeah, there's something with my right shoulder...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
aww
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
You starting to warm up?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
a little
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
gah now im getting cold again
Will says:
*sigh* I really want some physical contact right now...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
aww
Will says:
Ugh...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ugh?
Will says:
Yup
Amanda:
I'm really sorry. I should have done this a long time ago. You deserve to know what was really going on from my end.
Well, I'm sure you know that Elise and I were together for 3 months short of a year my Junior year. If you didn't, you do now. Well, we were happy until February last year and she finally broke up with me that March.
So, after that I started getting really depressed. It would come in waves. At first it was because I was heart-broken, but then it turned into just needing to be cared for, wanting to love. I started going through hug withdrawals. I needed physical contact.
I was at one of those really low points this past February/March. I needed someone I could talk to, an outlet. I had my third-cousin, but she was far away and I felt like I was bothering her all the times with all my problems. I decided I needed an outlet who was closer.
I decided I would try to make that person you. That was mostly because I get really nervous around girls I like, and I wasn't attracted to you at all and you seemed nice enough. But by the time I might have figured out how to do that, those problems had passed. I was still feeling down and wanting someone, a significant other, to be with.
Honestly, when you asked me to that movie, I really only did it to be polite. Well, what happened throughout the course of that evening and beyond happened because I was depressed. To quote one of the greatest musical of all time, "The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and to be loved in return." That's what I wanted, to love and be loved in return. But I was so down, I fell for a cheap imitation. I could see that you (maybe) cared for me. Or that you were at least going to give me the physical contact that I missed so much.
I fell for the cheap thrills of lust. I'm sorry. The truth is that I've never had any sort of feelings about you other than that. I'm really sorry. I should have told you back in March instead of leading you on. Please forgive me. If you're angry and hate me now, I understand. I'm profoundly and sincerely sorry.
Will
So yeah. well i hadn't heard much from him since then. until last night. I freaked when he IMed and i closed the window. I reopened and thats where this starts.
Oh and it says Throes of Lust because i nicknamed him that on MSN one night that I was feeling particularly bitchy at him lol.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
hi Will.
Throes of Lust says:
Hey
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
Haven't talked to you in a while
Throes of Lust says:
Nope.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
how are things in college?
Throes of Lust says:
Meh
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
meh?
Throes of Lust says:
Yup
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
awww
Throes of Lust says:
You may see a pattern here. College has turned me predominately monosyllabic.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
that sucks
Throes of Lust says:
Nah. Not really.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
so what did you do for thanksgiving?
Throes of Lust says:
Went to my Aunt's house.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
cool. did you have fun?
Throes of Lust says:
I guess. I don't really know any of these people.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
you'll be coming back out here for Christmas though right? so you'll get to see your family and everything
Throes of Lust says:
Yup. Direct flights both ways. Simply amazing.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
Awesome
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh I met Paul lol he seems pretty nice
Throes of Lust says:
Really? Not uber reclusive?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well yeaah pretty reclsive too, but nice
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
hes very quiet lol
Throes of Lust says:
So... What's with this "In a relationship" facebook business?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well i have a boyfriend named Chris
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
he lives in south carolina which kinda sucks, but we manage
Throes of Lust says:
And how'd that happen?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I met him online a year ago
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and we've talked like everyday since
Throes of Lust says:
Sort of a creepy way to meet people.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
dont worry hes not a 40 year old man
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol i know Shelley says the same thing
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but i know hes definitely a 18 year old boy
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
we talk to each other on the phone all the time, and we have webcams so we can see eachother
Throes of Lust says:
I have a webcam too. Stupid, stupid impulse purchase...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Throes of Lust says:
How'd you go about meeting this guy online?
Will says:
A sleezy internet dating service?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
Myspace, randomly added em
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
*me
Will says:
Hm... My friend's doing a similar thing with a guy in Oklahoma with facebook messaging. I keep warning her. She doesn't listen. And she already has a boyfriend.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
wowo
Will says:
Except she's not having that oklahoma guy as a boyfriend.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
see i didn't already have a boyfriend
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but i trust Chris, and he trusts me
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and we both know that we arent some old person pretending to be a teenager
Will says:
Well, as far as relationships are concerned, I'm ripped and torn and say "Phooey" on them all.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
aww
Will says:
There's just so much pressure to date and get married. Even now BEFORE my mission.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ackWill says:
You'd think that there would be more point to college.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
seriously
Will says:
But I say meh. I don't care. I've given up. I'm almost positive that I'm not supposed to be in a relationship now, anyway.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
awww
Will says:
Meh. I don't need "awwww"ing. I need friends and people I can be with so that I don't get like I have been this break.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
Will says:
That's still the same sound.
Will says:
But whatever.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well you know I'm your friend and you can talk to me if you are feeling down
Will says:
So, I have a potentially akward question that I've been wondering since, well, since we were "together".
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
okay?
Will says:
So, um... How far were you willing to go with me?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
O.O
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
um i really dont know
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i never really thought about that
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
at the time i was just happy with hugging and kissing lol
Will says:
I was... ripped in two. The carnal, and the spiritual/intellectual.
Will says:
Yeah. We were sort of past where I wanted to be. We definitely did it the wrong way. Oh how I wish I had another shot at a first kiss...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
Will I really don't know hat to say about that to be honest
Will says:
Well, it's true.
Will says:
I regret what we did almost every day.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I'm sorry
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i really just don't know what to say
Will says:
That's fine. And you, at least seemed to, understood when I told you the truth and that I really only did that for the physical. I had this goal. I had to have my first kiss before I left high school. And... yeah.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well just so you know you were my first kiss too
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and before that i didnt think i would ever have one before i left high school
Will says:
Interesting that we jumped straight to 15 minutes at a time without a breath.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
kinda
Will says:
Wow... I must really have been desparate...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well i must have too cuz you didnt see me stopping you
Will says:
Well, in my defense, you were the instigator.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah. I kinda was
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
sorry
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
All I really wanted that evening was what I always want, a cuddle.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well in my defense i was really happy so i couldn't help myself. I had liked you for a really long time
Will says:
Now I'm curious... Was the nipple rubbing in the movie intentional?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
no.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
that was not
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
when it happened i was like OMG what the crud he'll think im some sort of whore
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i was holding your hands and i accidentally placed them there and panicked after that
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i was so emmbarressed
Will says:
Oh. I meant your hand on mine.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah thats what i meant too
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i think? watt im cpnfused
Will says:
Never mind.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
no tell me
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i think i know what you are talking about
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but im not sure
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i was holding your ands and i accidentally placed them... on me.
Will says:
Yup
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
that was purely an accident
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i totally freaked out in my head at that point
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and when i got home
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i was like i can not believe i did that
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
he probably thinks im a whore
Will says:
I think that night brought out the worst in both of us.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
mayhaps
Will says:
Definitely my greatest weakness...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well I'm sorry about how everything went and all and how it all turned out
Will says:
I've got laundry to move. BRB
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
because i really did like you a lot
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol okay
Will says:
Back
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
welcome back
Will says:
How much did you like me?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
a lot.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well to be honest
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i kinda developed a crush on you in 7th grade
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
see there was a choir thing at twain and i met you there
Will says:
What? Then? I'd never even seen you until the end of my junior year.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah you did. I knew you wouldn't remember lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
there was a dance thing we did for a choir concert a twain
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
it got cut
Will says:
Was it the rock-a-thon? Were you playing star-wars monopoly with me?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but you were there in it with me
Will says:
Oh?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
no
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
So... confused...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah but i remembered you because i had these mouse socks on and you liked them lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i know thats random, but thats how i remember metting you
Will says:
Don't remember that at all.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol i didnt think you would
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and well i kinda wore those socks that night as a good luck charm lol
Will says:
Oh. Wow. They must've worked for you, then.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i guess so
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well anyway after that i didnt see you until 9th grade
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but i remebered you
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but you were with Elise so i chalked it up as oh well he probably wouldn't like me anyway
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and then i liked Seth, but i always found you kinda cute
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and then last year you were in choir
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and we know how it went from there
Will says:
Well, I was always in choir.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i mean in my class
Will says:
I know.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
that was my first year in choir at edison lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and only. i didnt get choir this year for some reason
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but oh well
Will says:
Wow. I don't know what it is, but... I think I've changed a lot already since starting college.
Will says:
I definitely look at myself more. Internally. External looking stays the same.
Will says:
I've learned, mostly from the recent two-week almost relationship that I had, that people need to talk with each other. Especially in relationships. That's why Elise and I were so unhappy at the end, we didn't talk.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah.
Will says:
I mean, it just feels so good to talk about things. Even this. I thought I was over this, but talking with you about it sure feels so much better.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
it does feel a lot better
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
because even though we have been over for quite a while i have wondered many time what it would have been like if we stayed together, or if there was something i could have done differently that would have kept us together
Will says:
Honestly, I don't think there is anything that could've kept it going. I'm surprised that I let it go that far. I was depressed, and needy, and... Not up to my standards. If I had been, I would actually have known what was going on in Ghost Rider.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
Will says:
And would not have been disgusted at myself when I saw HP5.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
?
Will says:
Harry's first kiss reminded me entirely too much of my own.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
Will says:
Oh... I so desparately wish that I could take it back and have my first kiss the right way.
Will says:
But... I really do miss kisses...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i do too lol you were the last person i did kiss
Will says:
You for me, too.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
wow i never thought i would be talking to you about this lol
Will says:
Meh. I seem to have many potentially akward conversations. I manage to keep them not akward.
Will says:
They just need to be talked about. Well, okay, most of them don't and we just talk about them because we're bored. But still.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh did you ever find any Dr. Pepper up there that wasn't caffine free?
Will says:
Only at the mall in vending machines.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
damn
Will says:
Oh... That's right. I had forgotten about the commonality of that word.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol sorry
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i usually dont curse too much
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but like right now im lina in like a wow this is random kinda mood where random things are popping out lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
Ikinda in
Will says:
It really is very sheltered here. It even looks like it. I feel like I'm in some 3rd grader's science project. Bowled in by the mountains.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
wow
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i almost sent you some regular dr. pepper, but i didn't know if you would like want me to, becuase latley i was kinda sure that you didn't want to talk to me anymore
Will says:
Well... Up until just when we started talking, I had you blocked.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
eh. I'm not suprised
Will says:
I'm not sure how the DP would survive the trip. I could easilly get some, it's just not worth the effort of going to Kmart.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
Will says:
*sigh* Now I'm wanting a hug/cuddle/kiss...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
sorry? I really can't help ya anythere
Will says:
Nope.
Will says:
And the thing about the kiss is that it's entirely situational. Everything has to be just right.
Will says:
But the hug, I could probably get. Maybe even a cuddle.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
mayhap
Will says:
*sigh* Physicality, and more what comes from it, is my largest inner demon.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I'm sorry. I wish i could help in some way, but i cant. patially distance, and it might be akward
Will says:
Yeah. Well, since we're being entirely honest here, that time I wanted to get toghether at the end of the summer, but you were either gone or leaving, remember that?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
Will says:
Well, I was really just hoping to recreate that first night.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i was at the cabin
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i was actually wishing to see you before you left too
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but i couldnt we went on vacation
Will says:
Well I didn't do a single thing all summer.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i saw you twice over the summer
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i passed you in the car
Will says:
Yup.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i was like oh hey look its Will!
Will says:
I could tell.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
Yup... I'll be back for Christmas. Don't know what my schedule will be like. I know I have optometrist and dentist appointments.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well maybe we can see eachother if you do have time
Will says:
Maybe. I know that I am definitely going to Sweeney Todd.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
it'd be nice to see you again
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
Not going to wait and somehow get to the theater here and then be sunned for it.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
Will says:
I said sunned... What does that even mean? I meant shunned.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i didnt know what you meant either i was kinda like wha?
Will says:
So... Where are you looking at applying to?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
no idea
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
im most likely going to nova
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I dont have good enough grades for anything else
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I'm not doing well in english at all
Will says:
Who do you have?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
Kiggins
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
the double entry journals are killing me
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
in Ms Browns class we didnt do them so im like the only person in classs who doesnt have practice doing them
Will says:
Ugh... Why? Why? Why did I have to be so corrupted?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
?
Will says:
Oh. When you said "the double entry journals are killing me"... Curse you double entendre!!! CURSE YOU!!!! *shakes fist*
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
okay? lol
Will says:
I didn't realize that you were that innocent. Now I'm really feeling corrupted...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
im not as innocent as you might think. trust me
Will says:
I must boil the filth from my brain. Get me a pot!
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i just dont know what you are talking about
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i am definitely NOT innocent
Will says:
Double entry...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
now i get it
Will says:
Scour the filth! Get it out!
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
eh its alright
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i just weasnt in that frame of mind at the moment
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I've read worse in fnfics
Will says:
Well, it's not a particularly good frame of mind to be in.
Will says:
And I knew that you weren
Will says:
't innocent.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah but im in that frame of mind a lot
Will says:
That's why I was wondering how far you would've gone with me.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh. lol
Will says:
So... How did you decide that it was time to say to this online persona, "Hey, you're my boyfriend now. K?"
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
actauully he asked me out
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but i had liked him for months
Will says:
And how'd that work out for ya, being so far away? Was it a nice first date?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well obviously we havent been on any dates, but hes going to come here and visit,
Will says:
Hm... This is wrong. He can be your friend, that's fine. But... boyfriend/girlfriend status and you haven't even met in person... No. It can't work out that way.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
meh you sound like shelley
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
be right
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
*brb
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
back
Will says:
Well, it's true. I mean, the staples of boy/girlfriend-dom are:
Hand holding
Clearly different from casual hugs
Cuddling
Kissing
Kissing more often and passionately than neccessary
Other things of the sort
Will says:
Mostly physical stuff.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
not for us
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
we manage just fine without
Will says:
I would just say that you're good friends, then.
Will says:
Unless you're uttering those words that really should be saved for that one, eternal companion.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yepwe are
Will says:
I mean, I've said them before. To a girl. But different context. She's my best friend, and we have a brother/sister relationship. Ish.
Will says:
And I doubt that you can really mean it. I mean, you don't even really know him. Just what he says he is online.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well we do. so yeah
Will says:
I tut at you.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
okay? that wont change the fact that me and Chris do in fact love each other.
Will says:
You know. There are things drastically wrong with relationships both in and outside of the mormon world.
Will says:
Outside: Saying things like "I love you" when they aren't really meant and what is meant is "I lust after you". Moving in without even considering marriage. Living together for years and years without so much as a single utterance of the word "marriage".
Will says:
Inside: You meet on Monday, date on Wednesday, get engagued on Friday, get married at the end of the girl's first semester in college.
Will says:
And not so much as a single kiss or utterance of the words "I love you" until you're over the altar.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
wow
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well me and Chris dont "lust after each other" we actually o care about each other
Will says:
Well, that's good.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yep
Will says:
Just don't go too far, because I can almost guarantee that it won't work out.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well you think what you want, who know, it might work out.
Will says:
Meh.
Will says:
I'm gonna try to keep out of relationships for the next seven months.
Will says:
And then, after that there'll be two years.
Will says:
And after that... I just hope that I don't go and marry the first girl I see.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i hope you don't either, because i do hope you find someone who makes you happy.
Will says:
Me too.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I know that you will. you are a very nice guy, and you are rather cute, wow i hope that doesnt sound too weird
Will says:
Only because I've only ever been called attractive once by someone who wasn't an old lady.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
see i dont really know whow to say it without sounding weird, but you are very handsome.
Will says:
Thanks...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well its true, even though i most likely shouldn't be saying this
Will says:
Whatever. I know, and you subconsciously know, that it can't work out between you and Chris, so it doesn't really matter.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
meh. i know it will work out between me and Chris.
Will says:
Okay...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
sorry i probably sound really stupid
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but i really do think it will
Will says:
I hope you realize that working out could be you two not being together, right?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
Will says:
Good.
Will says:
Well, I gotta get some food. I will probably be back before too long.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
okay
Will says:
Back
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
welcome back
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
did you have a good lunch?
Will says:
Haven't eaten it yet.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
So, is Chris the first since me?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yep
Will says:
Well, have fun with that.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i know it may seem strange that im so sure that it will work even though we havent even met, but i just kinda am
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i dont really know how to explain it
Will says:
Meh. I know how that is. It's exciting. Makes you optimistic.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
Will says:
*sigh* I miss the feeling of being in love.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I'm sorry
Will says:
Don't be. I'm probably happier this way, anyway.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
Will says:
But it really is the greatest feeling in the world to love and be loved.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
Will says:
So... do you have any ideas what you want to go into?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
Forensic Science
Will says:
That's right.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
DNA analysis more specifically
Will says:
Don't know that you'll be able to to that too well from NOVA.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i know
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but i don't know how well that is going to work out since i am like terribly afraid of blood
Will says:
Well, thy bring the samples in, you look at a computer screen. Not too much contact.
Will says:
they*
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
with DNA there is kinda
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i even have issues seeing blood
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
like in animal science on monday we were grooming a dog, and we nicked the dogs' nerve in the nail and it was bleeding really badly and i was like @.@
Will says:
Well, don't think of it as blood. Tell yourself that it's just some red liquid.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I'll try
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
so what do you want to go into?
Will says:
And if you're worried about getting into a college with your grades, you could try Southern Virginia University. Then you could pretend that you're in CSI: SVU.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
It's an unafiliate Mormon school, but they practially beg for people.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
;
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
*lol
Will says:
What do I want to go into?
Will says:
Museum Studies.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ooh cool
Will says:
Yup. I'm shooting for NYU, but that all depends on my GRE score.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
GRE?
Will says:
Grad school exam.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
Will says:
I'll be taking it in about five years. I'm almost positive that I'll fail the math.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I'm no good at math either
Will says:
Well, it's not helped that I don't ever have to take another math class.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol well no that doesnt help
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
its kinda funny really, i have Mrs Iredell for math, and she remembered me from 3rd grade when i said i had a crush on her son ben :/
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
she said oh hi! i remember you and i was like oh god.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
she even asked if i still like ben
Will says:
Have you ever not had a crush on someone?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
actually from the time we broke up to when i liked chris i didnt have a crush on anyone, and before ben i didnt
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but i liked ben from 3-8th and seth from 8th to 11th
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
which is really sad.
Will says:
That's quite the streak.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well technically i liked you from 7th to 11th too
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
wow. i wasted nine years of my life.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh and Seth STILL thinks i like him
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I'm like oh my god get over yourself
Will says:
Nice contrast to me, though. I wonder how anybody would or could like me.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
he even apparently brags to his friends that Katie Rowe and i still fight over him, whic hactually we are friends now
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i liked you
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
because i thought you were nice, and funny and cute
Will says:
Well, nobody else, really. I mean, Elise did at the beginning.
Will says:
That was an interesting thing.
Will says:
So close, it probably actually was taboo.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
?
Will says:
We were together before she was 16.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i get it.
Will says:
She denies that it happened, though.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack
Will says:
But whatever. She can do what she wants. I know it happened. She knows it happened. I know it was a mistake, but I wouldn't do it over again.
Will says:
Or, I would. I wouldn't change it. That's my point.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
to be honest i think i would do us all over again and not change it. It was nice while it lasted
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
even if things went kinda fast
Will says:
Kinda fast? Try skipping the whole first two parts of an actual relationship.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
thats true
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but keep in mind i didnt really know how a normal relationship went
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
you were the first person i was ever in a relationship with
Will says:
Do you know now?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
Will says:
Because this one you're in sure isn't normal.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i know you dont skip stright to making out
Will says:
That's good.
Will says:
That was... weird.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
you actually take the time to get to know the person, talk to them
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
it kinda was
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but at the same time i didn't know if it was normal or not then
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i just kinda went with it
Will says:
Went with it? You were the one who got the make-out ball rolling.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i did? you kinda kissed me first. i know i kissed you on the cheek a few time, but also, i didnt exactly know how to kiss either
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
so maybe i did
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i dont know
Will says:
I may have turned my head while you were kissing my cheek.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i think thats what happend
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and it went from there
Will says:
Yup.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
sorry. didnt mean for it to go that fast
Will says:
Well, it went quite fast. I think we covered most forms of kissing in about twenty minutes.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
owo
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
*wow
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i had no idea
Will says:
Some were really quick stops. Others took more time.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well sorry i made it go fast. I really didnt mean to
Will says:
It was my fault too.
Will says:
I mean, more than once, I was practically down your throat.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
kinda, but i dont think i minded much lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
wow. this is most definitely the weirdest conversation i have ever had lol
Will says:
I've had more... interesting ones.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh?
Will says:
Yes.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
I'm glad you didn't ask me, because I think there's really only one person who I could talk about those things like that with.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol yeah i wouldnt ask you about them. i wouldnt want to put you in an akward position
Will says:
Well, the first one started out being akward. She thought it was hilarious.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
So, I'm going to the Holy War tomorrow.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
what?
Will says:
And getting paid for it.
Will says:
The biggest game of the year.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
?
Will says:
Football.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh
Will says:
BYU
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
Utah State
Will says:
Yeah, it looks like Shelob came and wrapped up all the statues on campus.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
why are you getting paid for it?
Will says:
I'm working as extra event staff.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ooh
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I'm totally broke lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
the anime convention was last weekend so yeah
Will says:
Fun.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
it was indeed
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
we saw a concert
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
at the con, and they were really good
Will says:
I went to an opera here.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I've never been to an opera before
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
was it neat?
Will says:
I quite enjoyed it. One of the few things that I've seen that actually deserved a standing ovation.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
neat!
Will says:
It was very funny. I love Mozart...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i do too. i was just listening to Lacrimosa actually
Will says:
That's fun.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yep
Will says:
So, were you in HSM?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
no thank god
Will says:
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i auditioned but didnt make it
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
if i had i wouldn't have been able to go to the convention
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol Paul said that HSM was hell
Will says:
Yup. Well, he did get kidnapped and had his hair forcibly straightened.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
wow
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
when was this?
Will says:
Intermission closing night.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
damn
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i went opening night
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
wow i hope there are pictures lol
Will says:
Of Paul? There aren't. I checked.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
darn lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
that would have been funny
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i wonder how long his hair is straightened
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
Well, those girls had been wondering for a year.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
so have you been in any productions there?
Will says:
No. I doubt I'd get cast in anything, anyway.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
why do you doubt it?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
you were really good in Zap and Abner
Will says:
Because everybody here is incredibly more talented than me in everything.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
Will says:
Well, not singing. Only half the people here are better than me at singing.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well i always thought you were really good at singing
Will says:
Yup. Nothing makes you feel talentless and worthless like BYU.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack brb moose and sandy are giving me the i need to go outside look
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I'm back
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i just got yanked through the woods because they saw another dog
Will says:
Fun
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yep
Will is inviting you to start sending webcam. Do you want to Accept (Alt+C) or Decline (Alt+D) the invitation?
Will says:
I don't even know why. Just because.
You have accepted the invitation to start sending webcam.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
okay
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
brb though its really dark in herr
Will says:
Woo.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
*here
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol now im all shy
Will says:
You have to look down to type?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
im not very good still
Will says:
That's inconvenient.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yep
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i try not to but i suck
Will says:
That's what practice is for.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i've been practicing,
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i think im getting better though
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
brb
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You have accepted the invitation to start viewing webcam.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
the dogs wont stop barking
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh hey you have glasses on
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and you got a haircut
Will says:
I need another. That was weird.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
monkey?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
what in the world?
Will says:
Yup.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
silly Will
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
now mona lisa
Will says:
That one's not working...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
mine doesnt have fun things
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
its a will!
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
THose ones aren't working. I think it's because of the glasses.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
maybe?
Will says:
It's being weird.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
Maybe I shouldn't have turned it on. Now you can see my nasty bedroom.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
eh my room is worse
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
my comp is in my living room though so
Will says:
Fun.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
now im all like agh i look terrible lol
Will says:
Whatever. I haven't shaved in three days.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
you look fine
Will says:
Meh. See me in two weeks when I'm in my prime for the Stach Atack.
Will says:
Stache*
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
this is kinda weird. i mean i havent seen you in a really long time, you look the same but different in a way
Will says:
Meh
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
brb i need water. i havent had anything to drink today
Will says:
Yup. I haven't really been hydrated since I came out here.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah so I'm in piano this year
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
aww
Will says:
Fun. I guess.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
meh I'm not very good
Will says:
Probably better than me.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
idk
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
we have a recital on the 12th, and i am doing sleigh ride, and its terrible
Will says:
That's fun.
Will says:
Not really.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
*yawn*
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
blarg I really wish i didn't have english
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
the journals are really killing me
Will says:
I really wish I didn't have tests or grades.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well I'm sure you are doing better than i am in school
Will says:
I don't know. I haven't gotten over an 84 on a test yet.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
thats better than i have been doing
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
right now i have a 60 in english
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and i hav a C in math
Will says:
Wow. I don't even want to know what I have in Archaeology.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah english is hell. not only are thejournals killing me but the oral commentarries too
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
*commentaries
Will says:
Oral commentaries are easy.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
not for me
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
especially the blind commentaries
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
see i have trouble remembering literary terms
Will says:
the blind ones are the easiest because you're not supposed to know anything about it.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and thats one thing that screws me up
Will says:
BRB
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
me too phone
Will says:
So, what're you up to?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
welcome back
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
nothing really
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ust sitting here
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
im home alone. mom is out shopping, dad and luke went to my uncles hose to play Xbox
Will says:
Fun, I guess.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
meh
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh so did you get the mario vs sonic olypics game?
Will says:
I didn't know it was out. And I don't have my Wii out here.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack!
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
why dont you?
Will says:
Because my family/brother/sister/dad wouldn't have it.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
aww
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
that really sucks
Will says:
Don't even have a TV.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack! that REALLY sucks
Will says:
Not really. I watch my TV online.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i do sometimes
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but then again all i watch is CSI
Will says:
I actually watch quite a lot. More than I should, definitely.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
So... How's your next semester look?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
um... i have..
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
Animal Science Goverment, anatomy, Fil and English
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
*film
Will says:
That'll be fun.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yep
Will says:
Distracted by dogs, I see.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yep
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
Sandy keeps coming over
Will says:
That's fun.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
I'm probably taking her to school sometime soon for grooming
Will says:
Ah
Will says:
But, no I don't have my Wii. I do have my DS.
Will says:
I got something for it, too.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
Will says:
I like my quill stylus.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i got my pwn DS finallt
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
*finally
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
hang on
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol it was right next to me
Will says:
A pinky one.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i still only have Pokemon and FF3 for it
Will says:
Phantom Hourglass is so much fun.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i want that game
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
all my friends have it
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
but i dont.
Will says:
Hm... Can't see that emoticon.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
aww
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
its a bunny
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
we call it fussy bunny lol
Will says:
*sigh* Yup, I'm bored.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
I could go see my friend(s) in the town to the north, but I only have enough change for the bus one way.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
meh i have NOT been in a pokemon playing mood lately
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
every time i turn it on i get bored way fast
Will says:
I haven't really played anything since I got Phantom Hourglass.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol thats like me with Tekken 5
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and Final Fantasy XII
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i finally got FFXII lol
Will says:
Fun
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i don't really like the battle system in FFXII tho
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
is not the same as in FF8 and all the other Final Fantsay games
Will says:
Ah
Will says:
I mean, that I haven't played ANYTHING since I got and beat Phantom Hourglass.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack
Will says:
And I wasn't playing anything before I got it, either.
Will says:
Not enough time.
Will says:
Not that I study or do my homework... *looks ashamed*
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol i dont really syudy or do homework either
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
*study
Will says:
And I'm in an apartment with three valedictorians.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
That would've felt really nice if my face wasn't so scratchy.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol so i'm assuming you saw my senior pics on facebook
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
im kinda like shy about them
Will says:
Well, one of them.
Will says:
Hm... He hasn't posted my Cha-cha test score yet...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol you take dance?
Will says:
Yup
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
thats neat!
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i still can;t dance
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
Well, I can't really either.
Will says:
Ah, I see. If you see one, you've seen all of them. I didn't order mine. I missed the actual day, too.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
??
Will says:
Senior pictures.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i had to do the makeup day
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and it was really funny too
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i went in there and they asked if i broaght a tube top
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and im like no i dont own one
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
so they gave me this piece of cloth shaped like a tube top, and i had to go from the lecture hall to the bathroom by the subschool in the science hall
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
change into it and come back
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and i walked through the hall
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and like
Will says:
Fun.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
this much of me was expossed
Will says:
How much?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and of course like 20 guys happened to be in the hallway so i was like O.O and like ran back
Will says:
Fun.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
it was awful
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and then i had to go back and do the same thing once they were done
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and yet again more guys in the hall
Will says:
You know, you're surprisingly modest for one so corrupt.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
*hides*
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah. i am kinda modest.
Will says:
He he he he...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
gah its cold in here
Will says:
Argh! My eye's have been bothering me all day...
Will says:
eyes*
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
the thermostat always says 74 but its like freezing.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and i dont know how to set this thermostat
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
we got a new one
Will says:
That's fun. It was like barely 60 in here last night, so I set it up. I woke up this morning and it was 80 in here.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ack
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
im gonna grab a blanket
Will says:
K
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yay. warmyness
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
gah i look like a smurf again
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
we dont know why but sometimes i appear blue on this cam
Will says:
That could be remedied by turning on a light.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
all of them are on
Will says:
What are you doing?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
moving things on the table to pull the lamp closer
Will says:
Ah.
Will says:
Are you having fun?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i dont know? lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and i just noticed my shirt was falling down. fun.
Will says:
I noticed that you were fixing the wrong side.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah im trying to do it in the cam and it messes me up sometimes
Will says:
Yeah.
Will says:
Are you really that cold?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
yeah
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
its always really cold in here
Will says:
I would (with great potential of being akward) hold you if I were there. I like holding people. Mmmmm... snuggling...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol I think you would run into problems with Chris for that
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
he'd be mad lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
though really he couldnt do anything about it
Will says:
Meh. I've already made one boyfriend named Chris upset this month.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
*sigh* I wish I could have a massage...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
well i would (with the great potential of being akward) give you a massage if i were there lol
Will says:
Hmm... While I appreciate the gesture, I remember the one time I tried to get you to give me one...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
oh yeah in choir practice that one time
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
and i was sick lol
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
i was bad at it
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
sorry lol
Will says:
S'fine.
Will says:
So...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
Ooff... I am tired. Yup. A cuddle to snuggle to nap would be nice.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
Ow... Okay. I officially can't do it myself.
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
Yeah, there's something with my right shoulder...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
aww
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
lol
Will says:
You starting to warm up?
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
a little
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
gah now im getting cold again
Will says:
*sigh* I really want some physical contact right now...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
aww
Will says:
Ugh...
~*-Amanda-*~ says:
ugh?
Will says:
Yup
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