I'm Shock_T, but you can call me by my actual name - Tyler - if you want.
I'm 18 years old. I've loved video games ever since I had the ability to remember. I remember having a SNES, PS1, and an N64 as my very first systems I've ever played. My earliest memories of video consist of playing all the Mario games on Super Mario All-Stars, playing Super Mario 64, Bomberman, and The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time on N64, and Spyro, Crash Bandicoot 1 and 2, and Final Fantasy VII on the PS1. It seems like it was one of the best times ever to grow up into gaming cause these games are some of the best ever made. I've been a video gamer ever since.
I played more and more as I grew up, like Donkey Kong Country 1, 2, and 3, Mortal Kombat, and Super Mario RPG: Legend of the Seven Stars on the SNES, Pokemon Red, Blue, and Yellow, and Gold and Silver, Resident Evil Gaiden, Spawn, and Dragon Ball Z: Legendary Super Warriors on my Gameboy Color (I feel it's a very underrated game), Pokemon Battle Stadium 1 and 2, The Legend of Zelda: Majora's Mask, Goldeneye 007, Donkey Kong 64, Blast Corps, Paper Mario, and Super Smash Bros on my N64, and Spyro 2, Final Fantasy VIII and IX, Tekken 1 and 2, and Gex 2 and 3 on my PS1. Fond memories, man.
Also grew up into anime. Watched Toonami (and Adult Swim and the WB whenever it showed anime) every chance I could. Dragon Ball, Z, and GT, Yu-Gi-Oh!, Yu Yu Hakusho, InuYasha, Case Closed (Detective Conan), Cowboy Bebop, Big O, Ghost in the Shell, and a lot of other animes I can't remember right now. I don't remember Cowboy Bebop, Big O, or Ghost in the Shell very well either (Although, I recently started watching Cowboy Bebop). I still watch a ton of anime, and a lot in Japanese. Anime and video games have inspired me to learn more about Japan and the Japanese language. I can speak, read and write a tiny amout of Japanese (はい！日本語大好きです！^-^).
But, as I grew up more, things started changing. Trouble started happening when my brother became addicted to heroin. I had a Gamecube, along with Wind Waker, Super Mario Sunshine, Super Smash Bros. Melee, and my Game Boy Player, but it all got stolen by him. My mom had to buy my Gamecube back from the store it was sold too. My games kept getting stolen though. And then there were endless fights between my parents and my brother, even to the point to where my dad and him got physical - a couple of times. And I had to witness it and those experiences have scarred me for life. As silly as it may sound to some of you, video games and anime were my happy place and this stuff kept getting taken away from me. And not just taken, stolen. And not just stolen, stolen from my brother. And not just stolen from my brother, but it was to buy more heroin. Just the thought of all of that made it so much worse, on top of the traumatic experiences. And I guess we never really had the money to buy games, especially when money was stolen from us. Never really had money to begin with because I rarely got video games except for on my birthday and Christmas. It was like my happy place was stripped away from me.
Life kept getting worse. At the start of middle school, my grades slipped a little. Mind you, not that elementary school is a HUGE deal, but I was a straight-A Honor Roll student. Grades slipped more with each year. Didn't really realize it much back then, but I had depression. I fully realize that now. I also have PTSD. Wasn't able to have much fun. As pathetic as it may or may not sound... Yeah. I went outside and played sometimes and I do have good memories of that too but inside playing my favorite video games and watching my favorite animes were my best memories. Yeah, I guess I was a lazy kid somewhat. I don't really have those amazing experiences anymore. But I always tried to survive. I'd hide in my room and play video games if I could when all the yelling and fighting was going on, while I was trying to block it out and while I was wishing it would stop.
Things had never gotten better. Grades went to mostly D's and F's. Thought I wasn't really smart anymore because my parents barely told me so and, after a while, never told me that they were proud of me. Made me even more depressed. Although, I guess I was smart. Even while getting bad grades, I remember having the highest reading level out of anyone in my whole entire school in seventh grade. Other surveys and whatnot always showed me I was smart, but I still didn't really believe it. And because of all this, more fights, more arguements, and the realization of my preformance in school, especially with the potential I had, I went into a very dark place.
Still am in a dark place. I am 18 now. I did get an Xbox 360 4 years ago, but I barely ever got any games because my parents was always poor for some reason, and because my brother always stole my games. Maybe it's because they spend a lot of their money on beer and cigarettes. They're always angry now too, when they used to be happy. We used to be an amazing family. Not anymore. Everyone got worse, which made me even more depressed. I wish I could get a job too but I have never been able to find one. I wish I could so I could buy things that make me happy. Although, now, I'm in such a dark place that things like video games and anime don't make me as happy as they used to... Just the thought of that makes me sad. And really, now, I view myself as a ghost. I feel lifeless and empty. :/
But, I still hang on to the memories and I still try to make more of those experiences nonetheless. I do watch more anime now and I try to pick up video games somehow. And I have survived through all of this and I think I'm very strong because of it.
So, that's me. Sorry for the long, emotional introduction. A lot of people probably don't do introductions like these... Probably scared some people off. Probably was really awkward. Sorry. But I like being open with people. I also like to find people to relate to and maybe become friends...
But, yeah!
I'm 18 years old. I've loved video games ever since I had the ability to remember. I remember having a SNES, PS1, and an N64 as my very first systems I've ever played. My earliest memories of video consist of playing all the Mario games on Super Mario All-Stars, playing Super Mario 64, Bomberman, and The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time on N64, and Spyro, Crash Bandicoot 1 and 2, and Final Fantasy VII on the PS1. It seems like it was one of the best times ever to grow up into gaming cause these games are some of the best ever made. I've been a video gamer ever since.
I played more and more as I grew up, like Donkey Kong Country 1, 2, and 3, Mortal Kombat, and Super Mario RPG: Legend of the Seven Stars on the SNES, Pokemon Red, Blue, and Yellow, and Gold and Silver, Resident Evil Gaiden, Spawn, and Dragon Ball Z: Legendary Super Warriors on my Gameboy Color (I feel it's a very underrated game), Pokemon Battle Stadium 1 and 2, The Legend of Zelda: Majora's Mask, Goldeneye 007, Donkey Kong 64, Blast Corps, Paper Mario, and Super Smash Bros on my N64, and Spyro 2, Final Fantasy VIII and IX, Tekken 1 and 2, and Gex 2 and 3 on my PS1. Fond memories, man.
Also grew up into anime. Watched Toonami (and Adult Swim and the WB whenever it showed anime) every chance I could. Dragon Ball, Z, and GT, Yu-Gi-Oh!, Yu Yu Hakusho, InuYasha, Case Closed (Detective Conan), Cowboy Bebop, Big O, Ghost in the Shell, and a lot of other animes I can't remember right now. I don't remember Cowboy Bebop, Big O, or Ghost in the Shell very well either (Although, I recently started watching Cowboy Bebop). I still watch a ton of anime, and a lot in Japanese. Anime and video games have inspired me to learn more about Japan and the Japanese language. I can speak, read and write a tiny amout of Japanese (はい！日本語大好きです！^-^).
But, as I grew up more, things started changing. Trouble started happening when my brother became addicted to heroin. I had a Gamecube, along with Wind Waker, Super Mario Sunshine, Super Smash Bros. Melee, and my Game Boy Player, but it all got stolen by him. My mom had to buy my Gamecube back from the store it was sold too. My games kept getting stolen though. And then there were endless fights between my parents and my brother, even to the point to where my dad and him got physical - a couple of times. And I had to witness it and those experiences have scarred me for life. As silly as it may sound to some of you, video games and anime were my happy place and this stuff kept getting taken away from me. And not just taken, stolen. And not just stolen, stolen from my brother. And not just stolen from my brother, but it was to buy more heroin. Just the thought of all of that made it so much worse, on top of the traumatic experiences. And I guess we never really had the money to buy games, especially when money was stolen from us. Never really had money to begin with because I rarely got video games except for on my birthday and Christmas. It was like my happy place was stripped away from me.
Life kept getting worse. At the start of middle school, my grades slipped a little. Mind you, not that elementary school is a HUGE deal, but I was a straight-A Honor Roll student. Grades slipped more with each year. Didn't really realize it much back then, but I had depression. I fully realize that now. I also have PTSD. Wasn't able to have much fun. As pathetic as it may or may not sound... Yeah. I went outside and played sometimes and I do have good memories of that too but inside playing my favorite video games and watching my favorite animes were my best memories. Yeah, I guess I was a lazy kid somewhat. I don't really have those amazing experiences anymore. But I always tried to survive. I'd hide in my room and play video games if I could when all the yelling and fighting was going on, while I was trying to block it out and while I was wishing it would stop.
Things had never gotten better. Grades went to mostly D's and F's. Thought I wasn't really smart anymore because my parents barely told me so and, after a while, never told me that they were proud of me. Made me even more depressed. Although, I guess I was smart. Even while getting bad grades, I remember having the highest reading level out of anyone in my whole entire school in seventh grade. Other surveys and whatnot always showed me I was smart, but I still didn't really believe it. And because of all this, more fights, more arguements, and the realization of my preformance in school, especially with the potential I had, I went into a very dark place.
Still am in a dark place. I am 18 now. I did get an Xbox 360 4 years ago, but I barely ever got any games because my parents was always poor for some reason, and because my brother always stole my games. Maybe it's because they spend a lot of their money on beer and cigarettes. They're always angry now too, when they used to be happy. We used to be an amazing family. Not anymore. Everyone got worse, which made me even more depressed. I wish I could get a job too but I have never been able to find one. I wish I could so I could buy things that make me happy. Although, now, I'm in such a dark place that things like video games and anime don't make me as happy as they used to... Just the thought of that makes me sad. And really, now, I view myself as a ghost. I feel lifeless and empty. :/
But, I still hang on to the memories and I still try to make more of those experiences nonetheless. I do watch more anime now and I try to pick up video games somehow. And I have survived through all of this and I think I'm very strong because of it.
So, that's me. Sorry for the long, emotional introduction. A lot of people probably don't do introductions like these... Probably scared some people off. Probably was really awkward. Sorry. But I like being open with people. I also like to find people to relate to and maybe become friends...
But, yeah!
Used to know a bit more of things, but forgot those things because I took a huge break from learning. Recently got a new Japanese study book, but I haven't read it very much yet. Although, I have a few crucial aspects of Japanese from a small portion of that book that I've never learned before! 