Story about girl bullied for her unusual appearance(for those who doesn`t know - diclonius is creatures from dramatical anime elfen lied about mutant-girls who got mistreated badly for their appearance - they looks overall like girls but they have horns and most of people hate them for this) and went through abusive relationships, found solace in Kadaj`s arms but still felt fear he may turned the same like her ex was:
Now, im with Kadaj it felt good with him, he is nice to me But still i felt anxious Im afraid it turns out like in previous time I had guy, he was nice to me, hw was the first guy who iever meet and who didnt make fun of my horns he treated me the way no one treated me, he invited me on date, in cinema, holding my hand, give me ice cream He treated me like normal girl I thought he was a good person, it turned out i was wrong I started afraid to lose him, it seems he admitted it He started to be harsh with me, always insulrt me and told me to shut up It was unpleasant but still i was afraid he leaves me and i thought maybe i done something wrong He cheated on me and didnt hide it, tired from his disparaging demeanor i finally decided to confront him about his behaviour with me He told me everything, that i was his plaything, that it was fun to observe how such proud and morose creature like myself letted someone abuse her so much and still afraid him to leave He told me there is no way in hell he would fell for mutant but even without this phrase it was already enough My mind got blurred, my long-suppressed power aweken, i riped out his head. I still crying whenever i reflecting on that time i was with him, when i was so naive and he was so assholish | ||||
He still haunts me and im afraid new guy would do something like this too | ||||
Kadaj is not human, so he supposed to be better suppose to understand what i was went through but still...it is hard for me to trust after that jerk | ||||
I`m also doubt Zack would scold Aerith, Tifa, Cloud e t c for killing of harming someone who tried to kill them Stranger, unknown guy was more important for my ex than me it wasnt nornal i shouldnt allow it but i didnt know, i was young unexperienced | ||||
Kadaj is not this, he is not judging me for protecting myself he charish me more than them | ||||
But still there is also can turn out some unexpected problems | ||||
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