Lately I tend to view things realistically. However, whenever I look to my own future, all I see is dark clouds. There are probably a lot of people who can't clearly see a bright future before them. Yet I think most people make it by fine in life, perhaps on sheer luck. My problem is, I don't believe or embrace this magic that good can happen when the outcomes don't look good.
Now one might say that the key upon this realization is to try to improve the situation. However I don't have the will to do that either. I hardly have the will to do anything. Forward steps tend to lead to struggles with little reward, in my experience. But to remain the same, isn't that good either.
Sometimes I have tough luck too. It's like there's a certain magic which comes with other people being themselves, but when you are yourself, you touch into something that nobody likes. That's why a lot of times when I try to improve the situations I have, I fail to do it. So far I haven't made much progress in planning a future for myself, that I like. There's always trying but trying doesn't do much. Not to mention that I'm starting to lose my motivation.
Now one might say that the key upon this realization is to try to improve the situation. However I don't have the will to do that either. I hardly have the will to do anything. Forward steps tend to lead to struggles with little reward, in my experience. But to remain the same, isn't that good either.
Sometimes I have tough luck too. It's like there's a certain magic which comes with other people being themselves, but when you are yourself, you touch into something that nobody likes. That's why a lot of times when I try to improve the situations I have, I fail to do it. So far I haven't made much progress in planning a future for myself, that I like. There's always trying but trying doesn't do much. Not to mention that I'm starting to lose my motivation.