Your thoughts would be appreciated

[knite778]

Hey all, this post will probably come accross as quite jumbled but this is my head in a thread.

I'd been an atheist forever until about a year ago i overdosed on a bunch of stuff, thus following in my father's footsteps unfortunately. That night i prayed i'd make it and sure enough i did, that's just the matter of fact.

Soon after i went to live with a (mega)pastor of my area and wound up reading the bible several times through and devoting myself to that way of life. After so long it all seemed futile and i quickly became apathetic to it all and just started living life.

It's been about a year and i feel the "rebellion" so to speak is out of my system and i suppose living without a care is nice, but at the same time no matter how hard i fight it i believe a man's either going to be saved or burn. Myself included. I'm pretty much a terminal pessimist so i find comfort in the fact that if i do end up torched...atleast i saw it coming

So at this point it's like i can keep going on normally with the mindset that "i don't need to sell myself out to a bloodthirst deity blah blah," and possibly just die and that be the end of it. Or follow through on my christian premonitions, man up, and face this thing head on so that if things go wrong i can see my family on the other side and whatnot.

I'm a bit confuzzled at the moment, any thoughts from any sides mates?

 

[Ethics]

Religion can help people become better...well, people. It's not needed, though. If you feel like religion gives you hope enough to hang on through out life, then have at it. Just don't expect everyone else to jump in the same boat. There are loads of people who are not religious yet are just as happy and good willed as those with faith are.

TL : DR - If you believe in your God and he gives you the flare for life. Stick with it. If you are forcing yourself to believe, then don't and find your own reasons to live.

 

[unadulteratedawesome]

It sounds like you believe that stuff if you're seriously considering the existence of the Christian afterlife and the idea of Hell. If you didn't believe it, it wouldn't even be a concern. Get your beliefs sorted out first. Do you honestly believe it or not?

It's a bad idea to go into religion just because of a fear of death and what comes after, which is what it sounds like you're doing. It seems like your fear isn't letting you rationally consider the subject.