DoNotMessUpFF7Remake
Chocobo Breeder
Just got back from the bar with some friends and am in one of those moods where I just can't call it a night without relating it to people. First off, I am an observer, more than anything, the behavior of someone and getting to the bottom of who someone ACTUALLY is, intrigues me.
That being said, tonight more than normal, I caught myself saying to myself "Is this how he/she really acts when not out in a social setting?". I had just got off of work and was sitting at the bar having and old fashioned with a bud of mine, and this girl who looked to be in her mid 20's sat next to me. I could tell she was looking for conversation because a girl doesn't usually just start small talk unless interested. Not trying to be rude, I started talking about music and all of that good stuff and started realizing that everything I said she agreed with me with. Catching on to this, I made a completely fake band name in which she replied that she "think she has heard of them and liked what she heard when she did". At this point my friend who was sitting next to me knew what I was doing and started cracking up.
Since I have a girlfriend and don't cheat I simply just got up and walked away to the pool table area where I noticed these two juice head guys in the stereotypical affliction attire walking around talking loud shouting things at women walking in.
So here I am just standing here half twisted looking around and I'm starting to realize that everyone here is a robot. Everyone here form the girl wearing the belly shirt to the shaved head muscle man are all playing roles in which they are playing the percentages to find an outcome.
A woman isn't born a liar, feigning interest in a mans hobbies in order to fake a connection that isn't there, simply to get laid or fill a void of loneliness.
A man isn't born a woman hating, masochist that exists in only being interested in women as objects.
All of these are roles, and I know because I used to play them.
During college, I accepted that pretty much every girl I dated was going to end up either cheating on me or not wanting a long term relationship. Too much temptation and booze. Anyone who dormed, and was in social circles, knew this. Because of this, I learned that by actually ignoring women or being less of a gentlemen would actually INCREASE my "luck" with women. After college and finding a woman worth caring about I started to backtrack in my mind and think about WHY WAS BEING MYSELF NOT ENOUGH. And this goes back to the point...
People play roles because they feel being themselves is not enough. I think so many relationships fail because people start realizing that the person that they MET is not the person in which they ARE. People get tired of playing the role, and end up saying "Look this is who I really am, do you like me?"
All of this continues in the work place as well. How many people do you know act like they are confident, classy, and better than someone. Yet go home to a studio apartment and crack open a can of sardines.
When I was single, I used to dream of a woman coming up to me saying. "I'm trying my best out there, like everyone is, working hard. I know i'm nothing too special but I love life all the same". Instead all I got was women coming up to me talking down on other women, complaining on how they deserved to be rich, talking about status and make-up.
It's gotten to the point people wear costumes so much that they start to believe their lie and forget that they are just an average joe missing out on things in their life due to them thinking they are "better".
I had to actually leave the bar because the level of "fake" was reaching maximum and it was causing me to lose it. Everyone seems to always want to feel more powerful than the next guy, symptom of being an animal. Regardless when you really analyze it. All it does is make us drift further and further away from the vulnerable, clueless soul, that is just as lost as everyone else. At least admit it.
Enough rambling from me, night.
That being said, tonight more than normal, I caught myself saying to myself "Is this how he/she really acts when not out in a social setting?". I had just got off of work and was sitting at the bar having and old fashioned with a bud of mine, and this girl who looked to be in her mid 20's sat next to me. I could tell she was looking for conversation because a girl doesn't usually just start small talk unless interested. Not trying to be rude, I started talking about music and all of that good stuff and started realizing that everything I said she agreed with me with. Catching on to this, I made a completely fake band name in which she replied that she "think she has heard of them and liked what she heard when she did". At this point my friend who was sitting next to me knew what I was doing and started cracking up.
Since I have a girlfriend and don't cheat I simply just got up and walked away to the pool table area where I noticed these two juice head guys in the stereotypical affliction attire walking around talking loud shouting things at women walking in.
So here I am just standing here half twisted looking around and I'm starting to realize that everyone here is a robot. Everyone here form the girl wearing the belly shirt to the shaved head muscle man are all playing roles in which they are playing the percentages to find an outcome.
A woman isn't born a liar, feigning interest in a mans hobbies in order to fake a connection that isn't there, simply to get laid or fill a void of loneliness.
A man isn't born a woman hating, masochist that exists in only being interested in women as objects.
All of these are roles, and I know because I used to play them.
During college, I accepted that pretty much every girl I dated was going to end up either cheating on me or not wanting a long term relationship. Too much temptation and booze. Anyone who dormed, and was in social circles, knew this. Because of this, I learned that by actually ignoring women or being less of a gentlemen would actually INCREASE my "luck" with women. After college and finding a woman worth caring about I started to backtrack in my mind and think about WHY WAS BEING MYSELF NOT ENOUGH. And this goes back to the point...
People play roles because they feel being themselves is not enough. I think so many relationships fail because people start realizing that the person that they MET is not the person in which they ARE. People get tired of playing the role, and end up saying "Look this is who I really am, do you like me?"
All of this continues in the work place as well. How many people do you know act like they are confident, classy, and better than someone. Yet go home to a studio apartment and crack open a can of sardines.
When I was single, I used to dream of a woman coming up to me saying. "I'm trying my best out there, like everyone is, working hard. I know i'm nothing too special but I love life all the same". Instead all I got was women coming up to me talking down on other women, complaining on how they deserved to be rich, talking about status and make-up.
It's gotten to the point people wear costumes so much that they start to believe their lie and forget that they are just an average joe missing out on things in their life due to them thinking they are "better".
I had to actually leave the bar because the level of "fake" was reaching maximum and it was causing me to lose it. Everyone seems to always want to feel more powerful than the next guy, symptom of being an animal. Regardless when you really analyze it. All it does is make us drift further and further away from the vulnerable, clueless soul, that is just as lost as everyone else. At least admit it.
Enough rambling from me, night.