A Sigh Of Relief

I hardly can stand
Why do I try?
Like a plane I need to land
But I just close my eyes

The anticipation too great
I almost want to end it
Before its too late
I don't know where to send it
I can't stand all my worry
My visions getting blurry
Please end my fretfrul chaos
And send me home in a box

You don't know how much I love you
I breathe a sigh of relief
Everytime I hear those words
I am filled with disbelief
Please keep up this good work
For without pain there'd be no high
When I hear your voice I perk
When you lie I wither and dry
I don't come first on your list
I'm at the end of your fist
But I see the light at the end
Tera, you're a god-send

No Impersonal Yous.

Together we stand.
I reach out and yearn and you hold my hand.
You pull in close and we embrace in a kiss.
Nothing can describe to you just how much I miss.
Your sweet voice, how you squeak like a toy.
When you snuggle against me, fill me with joy.
The desire I'm filled with as I take your breath,
the willingness to stay to and beyond death.
How I long for you this moment,
to smell your reminiscent scent.
To close my eyes and hold you close,
to wake up with you is what I need the most.
So forever and on in bliss from above,
I think I can say, it is you that I love.

Under Impressions

I watch my own body
I cannot recognize my movement
My mind is rotting
My skull is filling with cement
Tears fall upon the page
As I think of all the rage
That you've caused me to hold
Outside; my breath is so cold
Dragged by my lust, my love, your touch
I'd rather die than remain in your clutch
I'm sure you have seen
What I truly mean
You're under the impression
That I have an obsession
But the impression you leave
Is one that leaves me to grieve
We shouldn't be
Under Impressions


Never

It happens so often
to the people in my life
I'm ready for the coffin
I've encountered too much strife

I want to hold you close
To hear your breaths and happy sighs
I want to care the most
Out of any of those guys

I never get a second glance
Its always about him
Why can't you give life a chance
Its as if being happy is a sin

I just want to hold you close
To hear your breaths and joyous sighs
I think I'm ready to overdose
Let the life leave my eyes

Please join me in my world
I can bring you everything you want
You can always be my girl
Because of my mind, my heart, your taunt

I’m sick.
My body is ill.
Diseased and still.
My mind is lethargic.
Blood pools upon the carpet.
Of my fucking bedroom.
It'll be over soon.
I cannot choose.
I might let loose.
The fears and pains.
The loves and gains.
That I've recieved in life.
Achieved through strife.
Dealt with what I was dealt.
Gone through all the stages of hell.
But I'm sick.
After all of this.
Of all of this.
I'm sick.

Why can't it be easy?
I can't not say something cheesy.
And once I can have her.
I don't want her.
It happens everytime.
When will I stop this crime.
Amidst all this confusion.
I'm one big illusion.

But I can't stop myself.
If I don't know I'm doing it.
I damage your health.
And then I abuse it.
My own mind lies.
To the rest of my body.
I have to spy.
In order to understand me.

You Care

You don't want me to see.
You kept me in the dark.
But you can't stop me.
I'm coming like a shark.
The scent is hot in my head.
Like your image in my eyes.
It isn't what you said.
But your words are not lies.
You care.
And I wasn't asking.
Through my mind you tear.
Every thought you're controlling.
You leave nothing to my imagination.
But you do not reveal.
You express the creation.
The lands you show me are surreal.

Oh Your Blood

Tears streak down my face
To see your body so disgraced
I cannot imagine any other way
Thank you God for the yesterday

Yesterday was all, but
I never really held that slut
By her throat, against that wall
Tasted the blood from her shattered skull

You think you can fuck with me?
So far, I've told you nothing
I swear if it happens again
I shall commit the ultimate sin

Over and over, I see their faces
Your body is broken in so many places
Such recognition of my victims
The mushy sweet of your bloody tongue

My fingers deep inside your sockets
The weapon concealed inside of my pocket
The wrong place at the wrong time
Maybe the dream was only a sign