Heh. I've had four relationships, or three depending on what you count.

My first was online with this aussie dude and after four months I think we both kind of realized it was pretty stupid (sorry to online daters). I still talk to the guy and stuff.

Next one was 7 months long but most was long distance as I went off to college, but I'm still friends with the kid. I don't if I would call our relationship normal. It was a bit strained because his family didn't approve, the distance, and both of us just have such strange personalities that we didn't really have the normal bf/gf thing.


Then I met some guy in college and dated him for four months, but again, half was long distance because I went home for the summer. He was your average guy in every way but he turned out to be an emotionally crazy psycho who pretty much left threatening sexual messages and did really weird shit up to a year after I stopped talking to him. So much for the normal guys.

The last relationship I had was with someone almost 11 years older than me for about a year and four months, but he's really sick now from complications from diabetes so he pretty much stopped communicating with me except for a message like once every two weeks or whatever, and the situation is just confusing and complicated.

Now...trends? I don't know. Some of my boyfriends definitely have similar interests and personality traits, but they are like each other in different ways. I would say that the four month psycho is least like the other ones in interest and personality and the last one shares different traits with the first and second one, but he's definitely very different overall. I can also say I was happier with the first, second, and fourth than I ever was with the third (psycho).

I've cared deeply for someone I've never met in person, for someone everyone at my high school thought was crazy, a normal person who turned out to be some sick freak, and for someone who I witnessed in horrible pain and very close to death multiple times and I still don't understand love or relationships. I don't know how much one person or another person is supposed to affect me. I don't know how much I should do. Most of the time I don't understand my own feelings.

I think I'm a decent girlfriend. I'm a pretty caring and loyal person. I'm not high matinence or demanding. I do feel claustrophobic in most relationships I have, even when I'm happy. But I like getting to know a lot of people and I like flirting, so it gets kind of annoying when I feel like I shouldn't spend so much time with certain male friends so as not to arouse suspicion. I don't know that I could marry someone. It's not that I don't care about people, it's that i think so many people are interesting. I've never cheated on anyone, though.

I'm not very enthusiastic about a new relationship right now considering my last two ended in a psycho and the other ended with the person almost dying. Heh.

I probably will have more though. I know the way I am. I'm aggressive and open enough that I'll date more people in the future. I dunno when though. I think a lot of people are interesting, but it's rare that I'm really strongly attracted to anyone.

Here's to hoping they will work out. I do see the appeal of romantic friendships over true relationships though. Oh well.

I'm 19 and never been in a serious relationship before (and consequently, I am still a virgin). A lot of times I feel really depressed about it, but I know there are many reasons why I haven't been in a relationship. For one, I went to a high school in a small town and I honestly was not attracted to any of the guys I went to school with. I'm also pretty shy and many guys may overlook me or have the misconception that I'm not interested in them (which is not always the case). Along with my shyness, I can be a bit insecure about myself. Growing up, I never felt pretty or had any confidence in myself which has hindred my getting a boyfriend. However, my self-esteem has improved a lot since I've gotten in college and guys have been noticing me a lot more lately.

And as much as I hate to admit it, I was once involved in an online relationship that lasted around three years. Although, I do believe some online relationships can work out, the majority of the time they do not. The guy I was involved with wanted to wait a extremely long time to actually meet me (he wanted to go through college and get a job first). I had to break things off with him because I didn't feel that it was realistic to have to wait that long to be with someone I never even met. I was also very young and felt that it wasn't fair that I should miss out on meeting and connecting with guys in real life (there also was a guy that I had my eye on at the time that I 'broke up' with my online boyfriend). Needless to say, he was very unhappy with me and I feel that he still resents me for being a 'selfish bitch' to this day.

Don't spend your time worrying about it. It's pretty selfish to make someone wait that long for a physical relationship.

Broke up about a year ago, been single since. And for the best too, didn't really have time to go on dates and spend time with someone special. Now that I passed the first year however, I will have some more time I think. But I'll probably won't find anyone soon. Everybody in university is way younger than me cause I already finished a college before this one. There is a Japanese guy interested in me, keeps sending me emails and such. But I'm not really that interested as he is about 6 years older than me. (Plus Japan, thats like the other side of the world) Yeah so its either too young or too old right? Well I'm fine staying single for a while. Maybe I should go out more..