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My Character Profiles · August 24, 2007, 3:32 AM

I have a little something to say to everyone.
I guess that it's in order for me to apologize for my behavior today (and as of late in general). It really was not necessary to take my anger out on anyone as I did in the feedback section, let alone a newb.

To be quite honest, I am not completely sure if it is a wise choice to have me as a member of staff right now; I suppose that's up to the rest of you guys to decide.
I am dealing with a small but significant number of personal issues at the moment (as I'm sure we all have at one point in time or another). Of course, I did mention to everyone that I am somewhat unhealthy at the moment, and I did indicate that it's nothing that can't be treated over time. Incidentally, I am undergoing treatment right now, I am on a strict diet, and I have been for the last week. As much as I wish I could use this as an excuse for my retched behavior, I really can't...

I wholeheartedly feel that I am an emotional bombshell at the moment in response to my current state, and that I do not belong on staff; (being as that what LA said about setting an example for the site is true) and I honestly can't set a good example right now.

I'm all choked up to be talking about this, but it's 100% from me to you personal information. I just want everyone to understand that I'm not lashing out at anyone for persnickety reasons.
Of course, I will still remain active here, but I don't wish to hold the responsibilities and the pressures of staffliness.

August 24, 2007, 4:21 AM

Rhea, take a break but dont drop staff. We all take breaks so no reason to force yourself. Just relax.

August 24, 2007, 7:03 AM

What Holic said.
No need to drop staff cause of feeling ill or something like that.

My Character Profiles · August 24, 2007, 7:08 AM

It's not like that though. I plan on feeling ill like this for at least 4 or 5 months. It's not a cold; unfortunately I'm having heart problems because of it, and it's very disheartening and stressful.
As I said, I like being here, but I don't think that I want that stress on my shoulders right now. =\

August 24, 2007, 9:12 AM

I learned the hard way, that working on staff whilst undergoing 'irl' pressure and hardships isn't good. The only person who can actually remove you is never around anymore, so you're a bit fucked on that front... but you can always just drop it in principle.

Good luck with what you're doing.

August 24, 2007, 12:10 PM

It'll be a shame to see you go Rhea but you need to do what you feel is best for yourself and the forum. I read your myspace bulletin and i can understand how bad you must feel. Feel free to spam my inbox if you need someone to talk to

August 24, 2007, 1:57 PM

Hmm, you do what you think is best for you. It'll be cool if you don't drop out of staff as you are the "voice" here for most people. Don't know if that makes any sense, but like you said, you're one of the few who are more lax with everyone and I'm sure they'll appreciate you sticking around staff.

But don't force yourself. Your health is more important, of course. So if you feel that you can't really take the pressure anymore, then that's fine and understandable too. If you do get out of staff, I'm sure you can always go back when you're ready or something.

August 24, 2007, 2:11 PM

Good luck Rhea.

Your health should, obviously, come before all this. I can only hope all turns out OK in the end.

August 24, 2007, 2:36 PM

Goood luck.

August 24, 2007, 2:47 PM

While I'm sorry to see you go, I completely understand why. Your health is more important and all the added stress from this place won't do you any good. Good luck with everything and please continue to stay active and keep us updated on what's going on with your health. Take care of yourself. That should be your #1 priority.